Hiya,
I've got stage 4 bowel cancer mets'd into the liver and a couple of lymph nodes. Good news, I've had 6 months of aggressive chemo (folfoxiri) and it's responded really well. Had the bowel resection a week and a half ago, handling that okay, awaiting scans and dates for liver resections 1 and 2.
The resentment is for the chemo induced peripheral neuropathy... and for the restrictions I'm feeling on my life. Where I can live (somewhere close to a hospital that has oncology, because recurrence stats). New limitations on what I can do - just studied 2 years to be a building designer and interior designer and now it hurts to hold a pencil, or type! Driving may get taken off the list, which further restricts where I can live, for public transport - and I loathe the restrictions that places.
My mum also has cancer, and now has cognitive issues, (I'm her carer) and I resent that my siblings seem to think that "mum can come and stay with us any time" is a good solution, they have NO idea about how much care she needs, and because I look outwardly healthy, I must therefore be able to do everything... and those of you who've already had the surgery know that just isn't possible.
I know I have heaps of things to be grateful for - and believe me, I am! I just needed to vent for a bit to some people who'd actually know what I mean.
Anyone else want to vent? 😀
