Hi Allicat,
I was on pristiq for roughly 12 months. I too was sick of being on medication! its an incredibly awkward, uncomfortable feeling...you know what you should be or normally would be feeling, but you cant feel it. I had a few situations where I just wanted to cry so badly, I knew it would make me feel better but I just couldnt! so frustrating. It blocked out all the good emotions too 😞
I quit cold turkey (dont do this unless doc gives permission!!) and was realllyy depressed for about 3 or 4 days after stopping. It wasn't really agonising depression, more lay in bed all day cant be bothered to even shower depression. no motivation at all. anxiety was playing up a bit but keeping myself occupied on computer or sleeping was enough to keep it at bay. After a week I felt ok and after about 3 weeks I felt absolutely amazing and back to my old self again! :)
If you/your doc dont think you're ready to wean off them then maybe see if they can swap you to a weaker dose or different meds?
Hope all is well!