So brave and strong, I wish I had your strength. I still can’t accept what happened to me, but I will try after reading your words. Merry Christmas aumaum ... View more

Better today. A good nights rest clears the mind. Still so very tired though. Going to see my GP in Jan for some help, maybe some antidepressants will help. This journey sucks. I thought it would get easier. Taking it a day at a time is the best advice. Learning to not look to far ahead in the future is something I have to learn. At least I won’t have to spend this Christmas in hospital with all those tubes stuck in me. And no more chemo so I can enjoy a good meal with the family. Merry Christmas to you my friend, it’s always a pleasure having someone to talk to who knows the struggle. Congrats on almost 4 years, time keeps ticking no matter if we are sick or healthy, all the best to you and your family. ❤️💪👍👌✌️😜 ... View more

Bad days. Friday I came home from work early feeling burnt out. Spent the next 2 and 1/2 days in bed worrying. I thought I was over this hurdle. Those lingering worries are still banging in my head. Do I have the will power to keep going. Splitting headache, ringing in left ear, so tired, pain everywhere. No finish line. It’s so draining, makes everything you do extremely hard, and kinda pointless. Found out someone I knew just passed away from cancer, he was 60 years old. That triggered my down fall. Will this ever end… ... View more

Good morning. Everything is kinda back to normal. Got a colonoscopy on the 16 Jan for a final check up and whatever happens after that. Sometimes I forget I went through hell and back, a good sign I moving forward. Doctors said it would take a year to recover fully and they were right, it’s almost been 12 months since I found out I was going to die. Crazy. I hope your doing well on this beautiful sunny day, thank you for everything again my fellow warrior. 👍❤️💪 ... View more

Thanks Felicity for your support and also this forum. Being open with my thoughts has helped clear my mind. I will continue to work and play. I know some days will be better than others but I will never give up. ... View more

It’s been a long painful, stressful, scary journey. So many times I wanted to give up, but somehow kept pushing through. Everything else now seems obsolete, if I can beat cancer I can beat anything. Much love and respect to you Isadora for reading my story, venting my thoughts has helped. 👍❤️👍❤️👍❤️ ... View more

Update. I got my scan results back, talked to my oncologist and surgeon and it’s all clear. They got it all and my chemo treatment worked. In January 26 I have a colonoscopy, regular check ups, just not as frequent. Touch wood but it looks like I’ve beat this monster. 💪💪💪 ... View more

I know the feeling, back in dec 24 I got diagnosed with stage 2 bowel cancer, mine seems insufficient compared to yours. Everything after that day has sucked. Being sick is one thing, but being sick and dealing with life’s daily problems is hard. Looking back it was easier to just lay in the hospital bed and rest and be looked after rather than go to work, pay bills, do house work and pretend everything was okay. So sorry that your mum passed, it’s seems that life always kick you in the guts when your down. Try to stay strong, vent your thoughts here and don’t be ashamed to cry.  ... View more

In my spare time I rest. I used to run, bike ride, hike, now I need a lot more rest to recover from work. I used to feel guilty about just sitting down and doing nothing but I realise now my body is not as strong as before. Mostly I read after I get the house work done, or lie in bed and watch you tube videos on my iPad until I fall asleep. Play and walk with my dog weather pending, it’s been non stop rain for the last week so I just chase her inside or play fetch. And that’s about it. Not very exciting life, but it’s all I can do. I have to start a list like you, just to keep focused on what’s important and what’s not. Didn’t think life would turn out like this, it’s depressing but I have to learn to accept it. After work I have dinner with my mom and than  we watch tv together, see has helped me so much and I would be lost without her. Another cold rainy day, doesn’t help my mental state but I will push through the working day, come home rest and do it all over again. Ground hog day… ... View more

Hi Erin, if my mental health gets worse I will seek help. I think I’m borderline at the moment, could get better or worse. It’s almost been a year since my cancer diagnosis, I will see my doctors in 2 weeks for a check up and further appointments and a colonoscopy. Not having the same strength is challenging, it’s something that I just have to accept. Working and living through this is exhausting, but I will keep going as long as I can. ... View more