Hahaha 🙂 your a classic! If the surgeon obliges you will have to pass on his details.. I could sure do with some of that! Bloody thyroid (or lack of it now!!) I've found 14kg since December (it wasn't Christmas pudding I swear!!). One of the school mums said to me "o wow your fading away, you've lost heaps of weight" I tried not too but I laughed in her face.. Some people just say the silliest things don't they 🙂 that's the weirdest part I think, dealing with the acquaintances who dont know me so well and don't get my humour 🙂 God your op sounds huge, amazing what they can do these days! Love that your "a weed" = indestructible! ... View more

Oh my god, how's that for some perspective. So much on your plate and still cracking jokes, I love it. When is your big surgery happening? I hope you make it to NZ to spend some time with your sister. I don't pray it's just not me, but I will keep you in my thoughts and hope for the best for you as you sound like an amazing person. HATS OFF TO YOU lovely lady!!! Hope You keep that chin up an come out the other end of 2012 smiling! X shell ... View more

Can't begin to imagine how you are feeling.. I am fresh out of isolation and waiting for my hopefully clean body scan results - my cancer (thyroid) was stage 2 thanks to my age, so nowhere near as drastic as yours but nevertheless it's such a huge word and you immediately board the emotional roller coaster, shock, anger, depression, elation and positive then nothing.. Ahhh no wonder we go a little bit nutty!! being told that you aren't going to get better would be the worst words in the world you can hear, and to the confront that and come to some sort of terms with it and then be told oh you are ok.. Well wow, no wonder you half expect it to come back and feel that you could cope better with that.. It does make sense, your not crazy 😃 I don't know what to say to actually help but I think I can appreciate the way your feeling and I hope someone else has something useful to say to you, ha not just babble at you like I am!! All the best, Shell ... View more

Wow. What an amazing battle and outcome! I have to admit I was scared about the ending when I started reading and then saw the 1%.. Thankyou for sharing, I hope for the best results next month. I love that he is driving and back to work (albeit in a modified version, but fantastic that he can carry on in the field), such a feel good story. I am impressed that he hasn't done "why me".. I have had a few "why me" moments but there is always a quick "well why not me, if it wasn't me it'd be some other poor bugger!" moment on its heels! All the best to you & hubby. Cheers to a happy healthy 2012 & beyond! ... View more

I am so sorry. I hope you are surrounded by family today and in the coming days and can share precious memories. ... View more

Hey. No need for a big ramble (unless you feel like it, then I'm all ears!) I hope you are feeling better soon, and I wish there was something practical I could do to help.. For me helplessness is life's worst feeling, hate seeing or hearing of suffering that I can't fix. Hope your day has gotten better, hang in there mate.. And just know that I am thinking of you and sending positive vibes (ha ha sounding like an old hippy lady!) probably not the best idea, forget the vibes since my vibes are radioactive I best keep them to myself hey! Xo ... View more

Hi Ash, Just been having a quiet sob reading your posts. (I'm pretty fragile at the moment, in isolation away from my babies, but that's another story & this is about you!) How are you going this morning? Hope you had a good nights sleep and that those beautiful memories came back to life in your dreams. Have you had a go at your so called best friend? I found support in funny places and was amazed that the old best friend went MIA on me also. I let the silence go for a good 8 weeks before finally getting so sick of thinking / hurting about her and I rang and gave her a big piece of my mind. She apologized and cried, I didn't care much about her.. I realise now as much as I personally really miss our friendship it will never be the same again because the hurt went to deep and I can't fathom how some people can be so god dam selfish and insensitive to other people - other people who are supposed to be their nearest and dearest.. So anyway having a go cleared my mind a bit, she is still trying to right things but I'm happy to sit back and make no effort - too little too late hey.. A bloke who I went to school with died last year from cancer (27) I've always kept in touch with his older sister but were never really close, well since he died we have spoken regularly on the phone and just are a whole lot closer because I just kept checking in on her - she was so thankful and told me how a lot of her friends had dissapeared because it was too awkward and hard for them.. I couldn't believe it then and I remember thinking oh wow that really sux but im sure that wouldnt ever happen to me.. Ha. Fast forward six months and I am here. (& she is here for me now!) I have far too much time this morning.. Isolation will do that won't it ha.. Feel like I could ramble all morning. Anyway, don't know where you are all from but I'm here in Sydney and I can finally see sunshine out the window, wish I could get out there and soak it up, will go and have a shower and watch the sunshine out the window - Ash, I'll leave you with a little tale of my surrounds.. In concord hospital they have the isolation room in the geriatric ward (ha at first I thought shit why did they do that to me it sux enough to be in here - its really because the radioactive me cant hurt them) but It sure is actually giving me a giggle sometimes.. There's a gorgeous old bloke across the hall who is quiet as a mouse all day long but come night time he starts singing lalala lalala and he does it ALL night, that would be a bit annoying if it wasn't broken up by the little old lady in the next room who every hour or so starts chanting "no more singing, no more singing" and then because she is calling out to him another little old lady wakes up, who has reverted back to childhood it seems and she calls out to mummy.. I've launched out of bed a few times thinking one of my kids needed me!! It doesn't sound so funny writing it down but I'm sure I'd be singing lalala myself if it wasn't for the sounds of these beautiful old souls struggling along and dealing with their life's path.. Hope I've given you a little smile to start the sunny day.. I dont Know if it at all possible for you but i hope you can Go grab your wife and borek (borek- iPhone really?!) tell her rather that you love her and tell her to take you for a drive.. Sit in a park and just breathe. ... View more

Thankyou Alison, that's going to be the mental image that will keep me sane while I'm without them - the amazing feeling of coming home to my babies and my dear husband.. We've been together since I was 15, so coming up to 13 years and spent only a few nights apart in all those years, will be lost without them, but hope we can all have a new found appeciation for each other at the end x sometimes life just throws a spanner hey! ... View more

Hi Bob h, Sorry to hear about your wife's diagnosis, I have thyroid cancer (no experience with breast cancer) but treatment started very quick for me and I hope the same for your wife- to give u an idea, I was diagnosed on 22nd nov and had an appt to meet the surgeon (concord hospital) the next day, I was in for surgery on 6th December - it all happened so fast I literally didn't have my head around the idea of having cancer until I woke up in recovery after a 6 hour surgery! I have 3 young children, 6, 4 & 8 months. I chose to not mention the C word, I just told them that mummy was sick and would be going into hospital to have a naughty sore cut out of my neck (having two large cuts across my throat I had no choice to share that part!) I am going in for RAI on 3rd feb and am dreading the time away from them very much, I am making them mummy advent calendars with little presents to count down the days until my isolation ends.. Everyone is different in wether They choose to tell their children or not, I think it depends on age and personally type - my eldest is quite intuitive & would worry if I didn't down play it! As for yourself, please talk to your wife about how your feeling and make sure to check in on how she's feeling.. I know I was having pure panic moments but telling my husband I was fine fine fine, no big deal (even making Frankenstein jokes pre surgery!!) I did that so he would be fine and when he appeared to be fine I got cranky at him for being so fine! 😉 women hey!! Best of luck to you, allow yourself some time To fall apart but then get your fighting spirit up! ... View more