Hey Vinouche
How wonderful your post is in so many ways. Of course i am not referring to the fact that you are depressed. Wonderful you have sought help, that your mum sent you a message to "react"against the depression, that your daughter and granddaughter will be nearer to you, that you son is starting to have huge realisations ... wow!! Amazing how one small step can spread far and wide into our lives. :)
I had a funny experience recently. A woman came into my sil's shop and i was there helping out. This woman started staring at me and then all of a sudden started saying all these things. There is no way she could have known and a bit difficult to explain here via writing but it was spooky in some ways and yet not in others. She said that my sil's mother was at the shop and she actually named her and then other members of the family ... too much information that was correct for her not to be genuine and also i had never met her before in my life. Very spinny but in a nice way.
I have struggled a bit during my recovery for some direction and have done a few things that i never thought i would but it has provided me with a distraction and purpose and now as i get better i am looking for more of a purpose. It is difficult to find something that fits in with where we are at, so that is particularly nice that your daughter and gd is going to be near to you.
My son has been terribly confronted over my diagnosis and he has had to grow up in a very short space of time and he was suffering from depression before all of this. Luckily for me he has actually walked forward with things and is actually on a far better track than he was before. He now has his licence and gets himself to work and he is working longer. Although cancer does cause a lot of angst and sadness ... as with anything bad there is always good. 🙂 May we all be able to see some of that good.
Julie xo
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