Hey there larn!! See how amazing you are ???? You can see!! 😄 You just forgot to mention a little bit about hindsight and thats what you are seeing things with. We arent born with it and we dont get it till we go through something and come out the other end!! I think we all tend to be a bit hard on ourselves. I often say to people (and should say to myself) "how would you treat someone else that is going through this problem?" Some get it and some dont but in actual fact it is true ... we just do not treat ourselves in the same way. Good for you for knowing that though. Knowledge is such a powerful tool and you will get through all of this and come out better than before. Not that better is really a great word to use ... but ... guess what??? hahah I am tired. lol Yanno, sometimes i reckon that it doesnt matter why we do things ... we just need to stop doing it and sure, sometimes it helps to know why we do it. You are gonna be ok larn ... just dont cave in to that honeymoon period and you will be ok. YOu dont have to compromise the person that you are either. I am doing ok and apparently have low iron ... which is easily fixed ... just have to get this arm fixed and away we go. Have been trying to treat my day as if i am working. Oh and i have been helping my sister in law with her business and in the process of putting it on the internet for her. And ta dah my hair is actually bending over now!!!! How cool is that??? haha I remember back last year at the melby cup i was going to take bets on when my hair would start bending, well it has started. Lordy knows who would have taken that bet. haha Oh, i did manage to grow these stupendously long eyelashes too ... cept they have all broken off now. I told my onco nurse i wanted to keep those and get rid of the other bits that i was left with. Shame it doesnt work like that! Keep on being you larn and the world will be a better place and i bet you wont be able to get that song out of your head now. Julie xoxo ... View more

Hey willow Sorry to hear you have been in pain. YOu have absolutely done the best thing by contacting someone to get it sorted. As vinouche has said ... stay strong. Just cross bridges when you have to, no point in putting yourself through a whole heap of emotions that you dont need to go through. Julie xo ... View more

Thanks Vinouche, just hoping the other bits are actually arthiritis like they are saying. Last time i heard that i had a g/f end up with bone cancer (she had breast cancer to begin with). Butttt, in saying that i refuse to stress about it because i could drive myself nutty over something that may not be anything. 🙂 It is being checked and it will be monitored because i have a fantastic onco bloke and thats that! 🙂 Thanks for your note and i hope you are travelling ok at the mo. Julie ... View more

Hey Alana ...If you can get your eyes on a copy of the cycle of abuse it may help you to see things clearly (it is on the internet). Not suggesting that you arent seeing things as they are. Just that i found this cycle quite amazing and found it made me look at things with very different eyes. The piece i am thinking about depicts abuse in a pie chart and breaks it down. You are a good person and a strong one ... your children one day will thank you big time, even though they really are doing it now by their laughter and happiness. Sending you big cyber hugssss. Julie xoxo ... View more

Hi Chris Sometimes there is no rhyme or reason as to why things happen to us. Sending you hugsss and hoping it will get better for you. Julie ... View more

ugh! I just reread my post with morning eyes and realised it could be construed that i am fearing the cancer is back. Thats not the case - i am just struggling with side effects that no one else has had apparently. haha Trust my body to do things differently. 🙂 I have torn the tendon in the rotor cuff area (no idea how) and it gets better and then is tending to get worse again. Possibly i am doing too much ... going to go back and see my doc. Have changed gps and then she went on holidays. Julie ... View more

Hi choc2 We cant stop your pain per se but we all understand it. Cancer impacts on everyone regardless of whether they are a family member, spouse or friend or the person who has been diagnosed. Its an insidious disease!! Good for you for being able to reach out and write your feelings down and it is tough to lose your dad. I lost mine and i still miss him but am able to miss him with fond memories now rather than sadness. Julie ... View more

Hi Deejjay It is tough to try and work out where we are at and anticipate where we might be at. I am in a similar situation at the moment. Trying to get back to work and unsure whether the body can do it. I find it rather frustrating as i feel ok and yet i have things happening that could easily mean i cannot work for a while yet. Good luck with your decision. Julie ... View more

hugsss vera ... it must be very hard when you dont have much support. Hope the cyber hugs help a little bit. Julie xo ... View more

Jill Be kind to you!! Gosh, you know what?? You are human and thats what your feelings are saying, nothing more and nothing less. Stop being so hard on yourself. ~~ Sending you a bunch of roses ~~ hugssss Julie xoxo ... View more