Hi sailor Thank you for your comments - will try to pamper myself, not sure if I will have the time - I'm still unpacking boxes after my move -its like Christmas opening boxes and getting a surprise when I see something I have hoarded away not thrown away as I should have!!! When I finally do fall off the perch, my sister will have an absolute nightmare going through all of my things -ha suffer!!(that was meant in the nicest possible way)! I am going to try and pretend that today didn't happen and just go on happily as I have been doing since my move and since sooky boy went to Sydney with mummy and the family oooh. Thanks again meeeow ... View more

Willow you have made the call now it is up to your oncologist - you cannot do anything more. I am sorry that you are scared - I understand the horrible sinking feeling in the pit of the stomach and the fear and panic - I experienced that today when I went in for my chemo and the scan results. I saw the Oncology Registrar who thoroughly went through my file and after quite a few questions from my sister - I sat there numb - she went off to consult with her superiors and with the Oncologist who has been seeing me more frequently than the other 4 (public patient)! I am now off chemo for 6 weeks. I have a scan in 5 1/2 weeks. Apparently the tumors on my liver have got smaller except for one, but the tiny spot on my lung has increased a little and some other spots can be seen. After my next scan they will decide the next course of treatment - new chemo drugs and new side effects or back to what I was taking. They do not know why the drugs seem to be working on my liver but not my lung. Bloody hell I went in originally for ovarian cancer then they discovered an advanced and aggressive bowel cancer and cancer in my lymph nodes and tumors (14) on my liver! Every cancerous bit of me was cut out except for my liver as the tumors were too many and widespread. Now for some strange reason I have cancerous growths on my lung!! Needless to say the positive and happy me who walked through the hospital doors this morning planning to cope happily with chemo (for a change) has now gone and has been replaced by another me who is very confused and very worried - I am not on cancer killing drugs - how do I cope?? how does my body cope - I have been receiving chemo for 6 months plus Avastin and a back-up oral chemo - now nothing. sailor my curiosity about what type of passport I would receive is not looking good - oh well ..... bugger ... View more

If anyone has been bored enough to read any of my recent posts, you will see that I am undergoing a 'little' identity crisis. sailor after reading your 'Travelling on Two Passports' I don't know whether to laugh or cry - I do not own a passport - where does that leave me???? I get the results of my second lot of scans tomorrow (chemo Tuesday)so that will give me an idea of which passport I would be entitled to if I had one!! As usual- great writing and I was glad to read that nothing bad had happened last week. meeeeeow ... View more

Hi Deejay I'm a bit behind the times; I was looking for something and I saw your gorgeous cat so naturally I had to find out who (it) belonged to. Male or female (it)is beautiful. As you will see my little girl is on here too. If you have read anything about me or read any of my posts -Tulip features prominently at times - having no kids all of my pets have been my kids over the years- why not -they don't answer back but they can be as naughty as kids! Congratulations on passing your exams - not bad when you are going through all that treatment. About hair aaaaagh yes I've lost mine too - all I have left is what a 'lovely' friend calls bum fluff - charming!! Fortunately my friends know I have a good sense of humor so I am teased relentlessly - I even get asked if I wash my hair - how rude! Anyway when my hair started to fall out I was quite upset then it went beserk - now I've shed the tears and felt sorry for myself and even though I am very self-conscious in my scarves and stupid wigs and no eyebrows or eyelashes - I keep the hope alive that if the chemo is doing horrible things to my appearance it surely must be doing horrendous things to my cancers. Hope to hear from you about your cat and anything else you feel like talking about byee meeow(sorry it has to be done)!! ... View more

Hi Dan - I'm so glad you spoke about the Dental Program. I used to go to a private practice until it got toooo expensive then I had been going to Community Dental Service- but you are on a waiting list and if you can't make the appointment - back on the waiting list. I checked out the Medicare website provided by sailor (thankyou sailor) and I will make an appointment with my GP to apply for the Medicare Chronic Disease Dental Scheme and to put me on an Enhanced Primary Care Program - that's all on the Govt website. Dan I hope you got your dental problem fixed - mine are ongoing!!! Now 2 special thankyou's - Dan for the question and sailor for once again providing an answer Thank youuuuuuuuuuuuuu. ... View more

Gail - caring partner - congratulations on your Wedding Day. I hope it is everything you could possibly want and that the weather is lovely. Love to your new husband too -(I have what he has- bowel to liver)- 10 cycles of chemo down so far and feeling great - BUT I don't plan to get married again to celebrate !!!!. Have a wonderful wonderful day and long and happy life together. xx ... View more

Harker you are either diligent or delusional - either way I hope you are content with your decision. I for one do not want to go back and be with the 'normal' people, although the money would come in very handy. ... View more

Harker I totally agree with you. When I typed that sentence I thought 'delete' - what an idiot comment to make. I think I was just feeling super sorry for myself and thought I used to be able to rock up anywhere and have a great time but now I look like something from another planet - those days are well and truly over; to tell the truth, even if I did have my hair etc I really couldn't be bothered. Thankyou for alerting me to that monstrous aberration - my fingers tend to type before the brain has time to kick in - especially when I am angry or upset or feeling sorry for myself. I think in future I won't post anything until I have re read it several times to ensure I haven't written anything stupid - probably won't make the slightest bit of difference, but I will give it a try. Thanks harker take care ... View more

samex I have suffered from mild to severe bouts of clinical depression since I was in my early 20's. I have been on anti depressants and anti anxiety medication nearly all of my adult life. Now-as with you and the horrid cancer experience- I am seriously considering going back on anti-depressants as I am becoming more unhappy and less able to cope each day. I think, once you realise something is not quite right, a GP appointment is the next step - it doesn't mean we are weak or 'mad' it means we want our lives back and be able to think clearly and rationally - I cannot see the problem with that!! ... View more

Buggered if I know what I am doing - posted twice - think I'll go to bed for rest of day ... View more