Hey Sal,   I am reading post and im sorry for your losses. This must be really heavy on you as you discribe.. I know you need to take care of your family. Thats important but remember that the better you take care of youself the more you can be there for others. So take your time when you can. Believe in yourself. There is always light in darktimes.   I lost both my parents in my early 20’s (now im 28). I can say with confidence that i deal with it well now. I want to help people like us and maybe you feel like replying two simple questions. It might help you to gain some clarity.  Excuse me if it's inappropriate, feel free to ignore. Take care.   As someone who lost a parent(s)/ family member, what are the 2 biggest struggles you’re dealing with?  Regarding your loss, what would you wish for more than anything else?  That’s it. I wish you all the best on your journey in life.   ... View more