Hi @Paul71 , It's normal to be scared, but try not to worry too much as stress can hinder your recovery from treatment.   You never know, you may not suffer many if any side effects, but you have a strong will to live, & that helps a lot in keeping you alive.  Keep the attitude.  All the best with your treatment. 🙂   Budgie       ... View more

I appreciate your words, I used to be happy years ago, loved doing cartoons and other artwork, but now I am a miserable bastard. I guess the antidepressants have a hard time keeping up with my brain's poor defeatist attitude, so I truly envy your optimism; if I had some of that I could stop feeling sorry for myself, and perk up my immune system to keep this CLL at bay for a while longer.     It was REALLY depressing (when I went to the cancer block at the hospital for my first diagnosis) seeing all the other folks in the waiting area in various stages of decline. ... View more

Hi @heidi .   Sending virtual hug 🤗 Life may get tough, but its not a reason to give up. I also asked myself why such bad things are happening to me, but I realized I was asking the wrong question. It should be, what did I do to deserve the love of the people around me ❤️  And from there on, I wake up each day being grateful that they are still there for me. We are also here for you, fighting the same battle and together we will win.  ... View more