Chemo 3 cancelled due to low white blood cell count. Some small respite but still one stubborn lymph node. After one week at home I am still seriously fatigued and no sign of eating. I had morphine a couple of nights and am mixing it up with panadol. I am still unable to face mouth wash etc. Strangely I prefer suffering. The bite on the bile is strong . I thought I was getting better but after venturing out today for a short walk realised how ill I am.