Well John is finally nearing the end of this horrendous journey. Palliative Care have told me 'any time now' and we sit, my daughters and myself, and we watch him as his breathing pauses for long periods. We have been sitting watching for over 24 hours now. I had thought that he would have entered a coma state by now, but no, the poor man is aware of everything that is happening. He is lightly sedated but still startles and is scared and begs me to help him. Whoever said that death was a peaceful transition was a liar! I hate this suffering with a passion! I sit beside him and pray that this next breath be his last. Hopefully soon he will be at peace!