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Hi everybody,Rex my darling husband passed away last night,he died in my arms and with his hand on my heart with me telling him he is so loved.What an honour to be with him when he took his last breath in this world. He could not fight this aggressive disease called cancer any longer. He is at peace now and will be in my heart and our families hearts forever.He was so brave and a gentleman to the end,what a wonderful role model. Thanks for all your support over these past 6 months. Remember all you wonderful carers out there..you are all 'victors not victims'

As chemo progressed, my health and well being deteriorated. I got sick, quick! http://www.thecancerstory.com/2011/11/part-15-throw-next-stone.html

I feel down. Time seems to slow down the last couple of weeks. I am sick of waiting. I am impatient. It feels like a life time since I have known GBM but it has only been 11 months. I occassionally hope that it was just a nightmare when I wake up in the morning. I sometimes wish it is over soon.... No surprise, my partner seems to suffer the wait more than me. Two more sleeps. Fingers crossed. Remember it is not a miracle drug. Whinge Grump Cry Deal with it!!

The next set of blogs that I wrote are a candid account of what my experience with chemo therapy was like. My body did not handle it very well at all. I believe in my heart of hearts that doing chemo was almost like spiritual enlightenment because when I recovered I was new person, my outlook changed completely. http://www.thecancerstory.com/2011/11/part-14-this-will-only-sting-bit.html

So there are many things in this world that I cannot change or modify - all I can do is be in charge of myself, my thinking and my actions. I have struggled a few times in the last few days with staying on track with positive thinking especially after a day of extreme nausea + vomiting and hardly any sleep. However I am now back on the positivity train in this roller coaster ride.

When do you get to see the reports of scans ?Before,during or after follow-up visits with your doctors? I am wondering if it depends on the policy of the people doing the scans or the doctor. I have always received them in the mail after seeing the doctor. By then there is no opportunity to discuss what's written unless the doctor raises the issue. Next time ,and I have thought this for a long time ,I want to see the report first so I can prepare any questions. I may even raise the issue with my doctors.