Blogs - Page 223

Having a bad day with thoughts running around in my head that just won't stop. I was told yesterday that the reason one of my students has been giving me grief all year is because she doesn't want to get close to me in case I die. What am I supposed to do with this information?

Sometimes my password is recognised ,sometimes not.

I was diagnosed with cervical cancer in October 2008. On 1st December 2008 I had a total hysterectomy and was told a week later that they got all the cancer. We had got it so early that I didn't even need treatment. Since then I've had checkups and each time they came back negative so this meant an op to burn off the lesions. My last checkup was about 2 months ago. I received a letter from my gyno telling me that, again, test were still showing a low grade lesion. He wrote that any more operations would be difficult. He had sent all my info of to a top specialist in Sydney.

I was diagnosed with breast cancer September last year. I have been so strong for everyone around me even down to hiding side affects of chemo so they would not worry. BUT now I have had enough and I feel for the first time I dont want to be strong and I need to break. I have never asked why but now I do. Why am I the only one in our family history to get cancer, why out of everyone I grew up with does it have to be me, why is there a chance that I am the one that could become just a smell or memory for my children.