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My mum passed away two weeks ago from cancer, a melanoma that spread like wildfire. I cared for her for her last three months at my parents home in Bunbury W.A. And now the funeral is over I have returned home to Melbourne. I couldn't stay in Bunbury any longer than a few days. Three months there was an enormous feat, also living with my Dad...I don't want to go into that just yet. So far I have just walked around the city in a daze. I don't know what to say when someone says, "Hey Paul whats's been happening? haven't seen you around the studio?" or even, "Sorry for your loss,"

First dose of Lomustine today. So, it begins. Everything else feels sombre but so normal - the calm before the storm.

MRI Monday night, told there was new tumour Wednesday with talk of more surgery and further chemo options. Meeting with surgeon and radiation oncologist today to be told surgery was not an option due to tumour placement. This is just f****d. I have no other way to put it.

to remain positive i might look at life not so serious any more. i will try not to plan too much, and having more time for my wife and children. all of them seem to have the tendency at the moment to seek conversations all the time. i must take more time to listen and be genuine about listening plus positive feedback as well if needed.

it has been nearly 2 months since I lost my mum to pancreatic cancer and I just feel so lonely without her. I am trying to take one day at time but lately its more like a minute at a time. Some days start so well and then any little thing can trigger my tears. I am so emotional about everything else in my life too, like my job, my friends and also the ex boyfriend that ahs just come back into my life. I don't think it will ever get any easier I just need to find a way to deal with the empty feeling that I have 😞

A summary of my partner's events to date; 40 year old, slim, fit and healthy IT Engineer, cycled 10km/day, non smoker, light social drinker. Wednesday 06/03/2013 Tonic clonic seizures during the night, about 1 hour after going to sleep. Taken by ambulance to Base Hospital, barely conscious. Confused and unable to recognise loved ones, unaware of surroundings and unable to remember events. Diagnosed as having had a stroke.