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I've been a lurker of this site for some time now. Pretty much since my diagnosis of Esophageal Cancer on Oct 12 of last year. The main reason *I* come here is not only to read and empathise with the stories of other Cancer sufferers but to look for hope for myself.

Did you investigate the latest Brecon book of the front page? The heading to my blog is How do we Find the strength within as this pointed out how difficult cancer is as someone was saying. If someone out with advanced info can answer this it would be great. There is another one called "Responding rather than reacting to life's challenge's". How????? The way I see this is that you wouldn't mind having a falsie after a mastectomy. I am confused with it so please help me.

It's always there- it never leaves me. I find that whatever else I am doing or thinking about, it's there- in the background perhaps but somewhere in my consciousness, and as soon as I stop busying myself with anything else it floods into the foreground, it takes over if I give it a chance. I think about it an awful lot, I mean in the sense of giving it my full attention. Everything in life is now slightly darkened and the point seems to have gone out of some things altogether. But I've got to accept it because I've got no alternative. SAME - Me on my husband Nick's death, Jan 2013.

well I found a new doctor, a great guy and much closer so me, so no more long trips to Brisbane, unfortunately he isn't entirely satisfied that the radiation was a screaming success and (though reluctantly) has suggested another PET scan with view to chemo, well I finally think something may have me beaten, I've survived TB, spinal surgery and a host of other things in the past 2 years, even had no huge problems through radiation treatment, not so sure about this throat cancer though, and just when my hair was starting to grow back!

It's nice to have good days- Ben realised tonight that he hasn't had a headache in 2 days! No headache- not just no thumping heading but his brain still aches- nothing! And boy has he been chirpy, so nice to have the cheeky bugger back :) Enjoying- relishing- whilst I can :) Just the small things

Well, we are still here. Today we did our first Avastin day. My hubby is swollen and oh so tired from the bastard Dex. Fingers crossed the Avastin allows us to drop Dex dose and resume a sleeping routine t hat resembles normal???? We have also added an anti depressant drug which has helped him communicate again. It's not like old times but its not bad. He can still challenge me with interesting conversation. (Secrete is, I fell in love with his most beautiful organ of all, his brain). It's not over till its over!