Hi Hopeful,
Your husbands love made you who you are today. All of the experiences you shared together- falling in love, creating another life together, supporting him through his illness, coping with his death- they have all changed you. You'll never be the same person again that you were before you met him. The greatest love a person can ever feel, that between a mother and child, you have because of the love that you and him shared together. There will always be a part of you, your personality, your soul, that is the way it is because he was in your life. He may be gone now, but the impact that his love had on your life will always be with you. He will always be a part of you, a part of your son, and a part of everyone else who loved him.
I'm so sorry to hear about your husband...my grandfather recently passed away from GBM. My Nan is completely heartbroken. :(
Hang in there
xo