Hi @406cancer, You have been suffering for a long time, so it's understandable you feel the way you do. I've often thought of the people who are alone going thru this & wonder how they do it. Its hard enough when you have family around to help. You must be a very strong person to have come this far. Are you in Australia? If so, you would definitely be able to access the people you need thru your palliative care team. I don't know what it's like for people in other countries, but one can only hope it would be similar. Ask your oncologist for a referral to a palliative nurse & she can help organise things & steer you in the right direction. Also, I highly recommend you speak with a social worker, or perhaps you may want to call the Cancer Council number 131120 & speak with someone there to guide you thru this horrible time. Please remember also, that you have friends here you can always download to, or just talk. Thats what this site is for - so we can help each other thru the tough times. And please, as @sch said, tell us about yourself. 🙂 Budgie
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