Hi Sam, Good to hear from you! You really do not need to be sorry about your late reply as I totally understand the turmoil you are going through! The beginning of everything is hard, it is especially true for this journey which is so much rougher than the other ones. I think comparing myself to other people helped, people who have lost their lives to accidents, fire, flood etc. . I think about my classmates who were the same age as me but sadly have passed away many years ago. I am lucky to be still alive comparing to them. If you focus on what you have and focus on making every moment beautiful, you will feel the peace. On the contrary, if you focus on the negatives such as side effect of the surgery, it will make you scared. My husband asked me if I was scared before my surgery. I said not really. I said it is like people going to bungee jumping, they might be a little bit scared inside, but when it is the time to jump they just jump. Only with that jump, you achieve what you could not have imagined. You will feel relieved after the surgery, at least that is how I felt. Cancer is taken away, and you are given a new chance to start all over again. Isn't that great?! Yes, of course we have to live with some pain for some time, but the good news is that is only temporary! Soon after your recovery, you will be walking, driving, running as you used to. You will be there when your children celebrate their birthdays or graduate for the years to come... It will happen, just keep the faith! I am lucky enough that surgery was the only thing that I had to go through. I think the diagnosis is a wake-up call. It calls to change the ways I was living and change my diet and exercise more. Things will only get better from here. I am rediscovering the things that made me relax and happy, especially after your surgery, you will have a lot of time to do that. Pamper yourself, you deserve a break! Sending you positive vibes, Do not be afraid
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