Grunting, moaning, coughing, hacking to near exhaustion every muscle writhing and spasming with each cough. The bile rising like fire in my mouth, disgusting and bitter, my body’s reminder that I am not in control. Sitting there begging me to take it, this small blue tablet will make all this go away, why do I hesitate: This small tablet, this tiny tablet that will take me into a pleasant place where I can relax and rest. My mouth starts to dry. My head starts to drift. My mind starts to fire, taking me on an unwanted journey. I lie here Awake, relaxed, no coughing, my skin crawling with ants. My brain is hazy; the occasional cough jolts me back into existence and then I slowly drift off again into this cycle of madness.
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