I haven't logged on here in months but I happened to log on tonight. I read your post, and I have so many similarities to your story. My husband was diagnosed with a grade 2 astrocytoma which then turned aggressive and 1 year ago he sadly passed away. It was only 18 from his diagnosis to his passing.
We also have a 3 year old (who was 2 and 1/2 when his dad passed). I don't really like to give advice as everyone is so different, but I can tell what I did and what worked for us. I was advised for that age group to keep them in the loop, so my son was with us through everything, even staying with us at the hospice. Because the decline for us was quite gradual, (but speed up towards the end) our son got used to the changes in his daddy and never seemed too phased by it. I think he would have been more distraught to be separated from us and to be shipped off to stay with friends or family.
It was always hard to balance between trying to have my son and husband spend precious time together, and keeping things quiet and calm for my husband as he suffered headaches, agitation, noise sensitivity etc
The line that I found worked best when trying to explain things to my son, was that daddy's body was sick and that soon daddy will die. This means his body will not be here anymore. He wont be able to walk or talk or breath anymore, and we will not be able to see him. I also explained that even though we can't see him, daddy will still love us forever and that we can still love daddy and talk about him and see pictures of him and he will always be your daddy. I do not have a specific religion so I never bought up the heaven thing, and I was also advised against saying daddy will be sleeping forever or he lives in the stars now etc. Apparently that confuses them even more.
I also was very open in saying that its makes people sad when someone dies because we all miss him so it is ok to feel sad or cry, but equally it is ok to not feel sad too. Being a toddler with a short attention span you will be amazed at how lightly they take most of this and that slowly as time goes on and they develop, different issues arise as their little brains start to work things out. They are not like adults who seem to grieve very heavily for a period of time. Toddlers seem to do it in shorter bursts here and there. At the moment my son is having a few issues with asking if I am going to leave him, or wanting to play a game where he wants to pretend that we are siblings and our parents have died - weird I know, but apparently this is how they figure it all out and I am just happy he is expressing himself and the topic of death is not taboo.
I know exactly what it is like to watch your young husband, fade away into another world and also be a mum to a toddler at the same time. I am not going to lie, it is excruciating. One year on I am miserable and heartbroken but still standing, and my son is healthy and happy.
I don't want to put too much info on here about the final stages of brain cancer as some may not want to read about it, but feel free to private message me with any questions. Also look up some of my previous posts as I have written about my situation before and you may find it useful.
My heart breaks for you and I have so much I could say to you. But I will leave it there as this is already a novel! Please contact me if you have any questions or would like to chat further.
Much love and strength to you and your precious family
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