oh hun u poor thing.. me and my fiance are only 25 and we've been on this cancer journey nearly 2 years.. if u ever wanna chat pm me.. he was nearly all clear and now he's been diagnosed as terminal! a load of crap i say... stupid doctors! x ... View more

we all have those days.. dont feel alone.. i had one of those today to.. woke up teary and now in bed teary to... its all natural and part of this horrid journey! you poor thing being in so much pain 😞 do u have someone looking after you? im on the other end of the stick, my partner is the one with cancer and i wish i could take his pain away! all the best xoxo ... View more

oh im so sorry this sucks.. your story is similar to mine.. my beautiful fiance was doing so well after being diagnosed with advanced bowel cancer... chemo, radiotherapy and 4 major operations later he was almost all clear.. until a scan before xmas revelaed this horrible disease was back in his liver, lungs and lymph nodes.. he got told if he did nothing six months.. with chemo 9-10 months.. we refuse to kinda believe it and he's taking multi vitamins and trying to eat better alongside chemo.. a recent scan showed no new growths which is posative and lymph nodes have shrunk.. i fkn hate cancer its just not fair! ... View more

i know what you mean, i have lost a lot of friends because of my fiances cancer... they dont understand and i put it down to all my friends being in their young twenties... we are 25 now but nobody still seems to get it.. i have had one friend say 'oh well someone has to get it'... some people are really clueless! ... View more

thank you 🙂 you made me feel better! im with my six year old sister at the moment (yes big age gap mum had her when i was 18!) watching telly and its nice not to be doing much... she keeps me going, she's so innocent and cute... yes the memory thing would be good, i would like to forget the bad times.. i can still picture all the bad times though... it hasnt been pretty! i guess you have no choice but to keep going on and moving on.. i hate it when my partner has chemo because he's sick most of the week and i hate it! it feels sometimes like we are the only one's going through this but there a millions of other people in our situation! it helps to know that people have coped through such sad times... ... View more

i can still remember when my fiance then boyfriend told me he had cancer.. it was like a sick joke or a nightmare i expected to wake up from.. i remember everything i did that night, before he told me.. i guess its like when your really sick and you eat something and you vomit you never want to eat that thing ever again... i dont think anyone can ever really 'move on' but learn to live with the cancer experience.. cancer is a life changing event... dont be to hard on yourself 🙂 ... View more

im so sorry to hear you feel like this 😞 im sure this will all get easier with time.. its hard to break a habbit of going to bed with a loved one after so many years... my fiance is terminal and although we both still live at home, we almost always sleep in the same bed at night, and it is comforting to know he is there.. some nights i lay awake thinking of the horrible road we have ahead.. i cannot imagine it and it panics me.. as they say though time heals all wounds, and although you may never 'get over' what happend because i believe nobody can, i think it gets easier to live with... have you tried getting a really good book? i find that if i have a good book to read in bed it helps.. :) take care xoxo ... View more

thank you.. just seems like an endless battle... im so tired from it all.. i just want to sleep all day and not face reality, although i know i have to.. just trying to take it one step at a time.. ... View more