Hi my father passed away 2 months ago today from colon cancer and today is also his birthday. I was his full time carer for the last 4 months of his life so he could stay at home in his own surroundings where he was comfortable. This disease is horrendous on sufferers family and carers my father was my best mate in this world it was only me and him from when I was a child so the pain of his loss is unbearable.. I left my job to look after him so he could be at home til the end . I have no regrets as we spent those last 4 months together and trying to support one another like we did throughout life although I now have the task of trying to rebuild my life . I have no job , financially ruined and most days struggle to get out of bed. I haven't left the house in 5 weeks, I don't have any real friends and the people I do know change the subject every time I try and discuss my dad or what watching him die has done to me. I have lost several family members and friends to this disease and I understand that so many people are going through what I am and so many people are suffering from cancer.. I keep to myself but I thought it might help posting here to try and talk about my feelings and share with others suffering loss of a loved one. Where to from here I don't know my prayers and thoughts are with everyone affected by this horrible disease .....
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