Hi my father passed away 2 months ago today from colon cancer and today is also his birthday. I was his full time carer for the last 4 months of his life so he could stay at home in his own surroundings where he was comfortable. This disease is horrendous on sufferers family and carers my father was my best mate in this world it was only me and him from when I was a child so the pain of his loss is unbearable.. I left my job to look after him so he could be at home til the end . I have no regrets as we spent those last 4 months together and trying to support one another like we did throughout life although I now have the task of trying to rebuild my life . I have no job , financially ruined and most days struggle to get out of bed. I haven't left the house in 5 weeks, I don't have any real friends and the people I do know change the subject every time I try and discuss my dad or what watching him die has done to me.  I have lost several family members and friends to this disease and I understand that so many people are going through what I am and so many people are suffering from cancer.. I keep to myself but I thought it might help posting here to try and talk about my feelings and share with others suffering loss of a loved one. Where to from here I don't know my prayers and thoughts are with everyone affected by this horrible disease ..... ... View more

I posted on this site about 2 months ago as carer for my father who is also my best mate. unfortunately he passed away yesterday morning after fighting this disease with everything he had. I now have the struggle of trying to live my life without the person who was most important to me..... I wish everyone on this site all the best with looking after loved ones and especially people fighting this illness ... my heart and prayers are with you all..  ... View more

Hi everyone out there who has this horrible disease or is caring for a loved one suffering this illness. I am caring for my father and have come to another state to do this and walked away from my job as there was no one to care for him. It's now 5am in the morning and another night with no sleep I have been here for over a month now and find it very lonely.... my dad is my best mate in the world and I would do anything for him I suppose I'm just struggling with the situation at hand as he is. It's stage 4 and he is nearing the end of this life's journey and it's breaking my heart. The palliative care team that does house calls in this state have been hopeless and everything necessary for meds, syringes etc I have to take care of.... I just needed to write down my feelings to try and release so I don't break down myself... best wishes to everyone out there on this site as I understand the struggles and suffering you are going through xo ... View more