So scared

[maddie86]

Last night my fiance admitted to me that hes scared of dying in hospital... It just broke my hear into a million pie es... I broke down and cried.. It seemed to real.. I said i was scared to of being alone and that i wouldnt cope without him.. Im so frightend of the end, how will i cope when he passes etc? We dont have our own place and i so desperatly want to rent so we can be together properly but he says we cant afford i... Is there any career benefits i can get once wer married? I just feel like this is all getting to real and im starting to really think il never be "normal" again... :(

[purpleangels]

Hey Maddie!! How much does cancer suck right now??? Love I feel for you.....but someone wise told me recently that things will change, but I will be okay........so just hold onto that.....things might change, but ultimately you will be okay.......different, changed, wiser, but okay. Just hug each other a little tighter and enjoy every moment, that's what I am trying to do......as it looks like my bloke's battle is also getting harder......... Loads of love and positivity coming your way tonight..........I'm paying it forward!!!! I've had great support from here over the last couple of tough days...... Hang in there sister!! PA XXX

[little_stitcher]

I totally feel for you. It's really scary to be in that situation. When the time comes, you will be able to deal with each minute as it comes. For the moment though, just do today. Huge hugs for you (and PA as well)- you're both remarkable women. love Emily xxx

[maddie86]

Thanks for your responses 🙂 yes cancer totally sucks badly.. It just ruins anything and everything.. 😞

[Faithlilly]

Hi Maddie, I saw your blog and have just read all your blogs since you joined the site. You have had a long journey so far, along with your Fiance. Many challenges have been faced and met by you both. I am just begining my journey with my partner and its being made all the harder as he is not living in Australia. My best advice would be to listen to the posts here and maybe contact Centrelink in your state, they may be able to give you the information you need. Aside from that, I understand its really hard but take each day one at a time. You will cope when the time comes, because you have to. You will find that throughout your journey you have grown stronger than you will ever have imagined and that strength will be there for you when you need it most. My heart goes out to both you and your fiance, Im sending you hugs and my very best.

[Jules2]

Hey Maddie I have been thinking of this post for some time now and gosh that must have been tough on the both of you!!! Would it be possible for you both to create your own little space where you are currently staying? I know it is not the same as having your own house but at least it might be something you could both create together and a focus for you both. You are an amazing young woman! Julie

[maddie86]

thank you both for your replies... its so hard.. we are currently staying between both parents houses.. its really hard. We are just so young its so not fair... we are getting married next month which im so happy about but so worried about after the wedding.. whilst most couples would be off celebrating their future together im just wondering how much longer we will have together... 😞

[Jules2]

Hey Maddie Focus on the "today and here and now" and be mindful of the future. It helps me get through and helps me to still enjoy the moments that are there to be enjoyed. hugss Julie