Blogs - Page 54

where do I start? My mum has lung cancer which has spread, she's gone for 7 months so far when they said 3 would be max. Shes changed so much I can't believe it, so rude, so angry, so cynical of everything. So bossy, so controlling and manipulative, not only of me but my kids too which effects them and theyre over it. I can barely afford to live and had to ask her to contribute. $60 she said a week will keep her and all she gives me. I don't qualify for a carers allowance as she is palliative. My siblings just want her gone to a nursing home and want nothing to do with her.

Today spoke to Doctors and Nurses so basically stop having cereal for breakfast as it's not part of my normal diet. Back to toast. Radiotherapy went ok Decided to leave the accommodation for a break from the hospital grounds for some shopping therapy session at the large shopping mall instead. Bottles of flavors for stir fries and cheaper too. Oh and ice cream I had two plates of it chocolate ice cream and Greek yogurt, its like eating sweet and sour ice cream. hmm lunch time already ....

Started out ok and timed myself to get to the waiting room all primed and ready for the treatment all went ok. Wandered out to get dressed and oops hmm throw all that into the washing bin. Problems for this radiotherapy I had read that they start at 2 weeks not day 4. Maybe there is some other hassle causing me problems so need to go talk to Dr.

Tuesday I went for a wisdom tooth extraction as a preventative measure. Unfortunately due to the combined stress of seeing a dentist and the unfamiliar surroundings and the C word , I had a major meltdown and the procedure was discontinued. Tooth is still in and I was sent to the psychologist who is going to teach me some breathing techniques. Plan B now seems to either be extraction under general anaesthetic or my own dentist who I am emailing the OPG. PEG is booked in for 23/3 and D Day ( treatment day ) could be any day now.

Not a fun day today as appointments were running 30 minutes late and I was all ready and comfortable for the appointment. Bladder decided stuffit when someone else said he was 30 minutes later so after the 30 plus minutes refill to get comfortable again its off to another machine to get zapped and it was a little disconcerting but I guess all went well. Half dressed and bladder said stuffit again hmm I must get that problem under control.

Daz is back in hospital. His headaches are getting worse and they still don't think it's caused by his cancer. He has a rapidly growing tumor deep inside his brain, how can that not be causing problems. I just don't understand. Whlie they were treating him when we first got into the hospital he became disoriented and aggressive and it ended up with 4 security guards holding him down until they got him sedated, poor thing is brused all over the place. Today when I went to see him he was still grumpy but much better than yesterday.