I just read your post and I’m going through the same thing with my husband. He has Stage 4 Lymphoma that is in his brain, liver and spleen. He had brain surgery to remove a large tumor and he still has a smaller one being treated with radiation. He came through brain surgery with no major deficits. He’s so angry that he’s borderline abusive. I can’t do anything right. I’m trying to work my full-time job because I carry the health insurance through my employer and also take care of the house, yard, chauffeuring him to/from appts, manage and make all the appointments, talk to the doctors and keep track and administer meds. I wake up at 5:00 am and go non-stop until about 8:00 - 9:00 pm. His diagnosis was June 10, 2021 and he’s done nothing but push me away and won’t allow me to ask for help from any friend or family member. I feel like he hates me because I didn’t get cancer but he did so I’m being punished. It’s been very difficult to keep my mouth shut and allow the treatment so what I say doesn’t trigger an outburst. He’s not started chemo yet, just radiation so this anger is not induced by treatment. I’m mentally, emotionally and physically exhausted some days and we haven’t even begun the worst part of treatment.
