Hi Samex, Im glad your getting help. I've been on anti depressants for 2.5 years now. It got really bad about 3 months ago when it went suicidal, i prob wouldnt be here now if i hadnt got caught several times. I also go to counselling and have been monitered by the local mental health team, and have been for about 6 months now and i find it really useful, it helps alot. I was also worried about the stigma attached to a mental illness but it just doesnt bother me now, Im just trying to get my life back on track. Things went really bad for a while for me and my family copped the brunt of it all {my hubby and 7 kids} Im so gratefull about all the help and support i have recieved. Put your trust in the ones closest to you and if you need help ask for it. Im so proud that you have the courage to ask your doctor for help! hope you are feeling better xox