Today I don’t really feel anything, just tired. Ground hog day………. ... View more

Hi Maz, Im so sorry to hear about your situation. I don’t know what to say, life is so unfair.  ... View more

QV gentle wash. Drink plenty of water and eat healthy. It will take time but will heal naturally. The doctors wanted me to use steroid cream, I chose not to and my may worked, all is well now. If the rash starts to dry out use sunscreen. Good luck and all the best. 👍 ... View more

Life knows how to kick you in the guts when your down. Best piece of advice I heard when I was dying from the cancer, at the lowest of lows (I did survive though) was ‘ In order to grow, you need to cut a piece of yourself off ‘ Stay strong and never give up!!!     ... View more

Getting out of bed every day is tough, but I still get up. Victory. ... View more

Going through cancer will test you like nothing else. Having a great medical team listen and care make that journey so much smoother. Looking back, my experience with doctors, nurses, cancer caregivers, chemo specialists was amazing. Everyone looked after me so well. When I rang that buzzer in bed the nurse’s always came, never had to wait. My surgeon saved my life, said it was more complicated than heart surgery. Medicare took care of all the bills. It’s been almost a year and a half since it all happened, and I’m just starting to realise how lucky I am to be alive. Good luck and best wishes Pierre. ... View more

It’s hard to do but try to take things one step at a time. Find a nice quiet spot where you can cry your heart out, release all of that negative energy and then focus on what needs to be done. Wake up, breakfast, shower, get kids ready ect, ect. And don’t be afraid or to proud to ask for help, having someone by your side will give you strength.  ... View more

Sorry about my bitching and moaning and sorry me attitude. It helps to get it of my chest, lifts that weight just a little bit. I know it all comes down to fatigue, I’m getting older and have to accept that. Cancer aside, I have to change, it’s scary but I will try. Work is difficult, bills are difficult, dealing with problems I don’t want to is difficult. That’s life, I can’t look back when I’m old and grey, if I live that long, and have nothing but unhappy memories. I guess I feel horrible all the time is because my mind body soul are warning me I need to change, be better. If I feel this bad now and don’t change, what’s it going to be like in 5 years time. Never give up, never surrender, I am a survivor. ... View more

So, another day. Went to bed early, actually got to sleep very quickly but then woke up 130am wide awake, worried and scared, usual stuff. So I just stayed in bed, closed my eyes until 430 then got up. Another horrible night with little sleep. I’ve got no energy, my mind can’t handle simple mundane tasks like making breakfast and the day hasn’t even started yet. When is this going to end. I’m still going to drag my sorry self to work and get it done. I broke down last night talking to my dad, told him Im just keeping it together. I was crying when I got out of bed, my legs feel so heavy, my mind is foggy, my shoulders feel crushed. Fuck me. Its going to be okay, my boss is passive aggressive all the time, work mates annoy me all the time, driving to work sucks, driving home scares me. I have no sanctuary any more, home used to be safe, now I just feel lost when home. Maybe I won’t wake up tomorrow, why do I have to think like that. If there  is a god, please save me… I will not give up, no matter how hard it gets.  ... View more

Monday morning and still so very tired. Slept all day yesterday and have no motivation today. On my second cup of coffee, it helps but not really. I’ll go to work today and do my best, than come home, have a shower, eat dinner, play with my dog then go to bed early. It’s all I have left to offer  this world. I just want this to be all over. I want and need to be happy. I’ve become that grumpy sad looking old man, I get the shakes and cry in the dark where nobody can see me. When I went to bed last night I dreamed about not waking up, and that gave me hope. When I woke up I was sad and had a little cry. How fucked up is that. I just want somebody to hold me and tell me everything is going to be alright. I don’t have a partner or any friends, which was okay before I got sick, but now I just want someone to look after me. I don’t know what to do, my body and mind are failing, the old me is trying hard to break through and losing. It will be okay, it has to be, doesn’t it… ... View more