Hi Multan, things are gettng easier. I'm having counselling for an anxiety disorder (which has been going on for years, before Chris was diagnosed) which has been helping. His last check up (in November) was really encouraging, which also makes it easier to relax. He needs another check up at the end of January, but no blood tests. Because of this, we've been able to spend time doing fun stuff together, and getting back to enjoying life. How are things with you? I hope you can have a relaxing and enjoyable Christmas. love Emily ... View more

This may not be grief, but it sounds a lot like the more physical symptoms of anxiety (surely an aspect of grief.) It may be worth checking in with a GP and getting it checked out- you may have a virus or something, or it may be anxiety related, but either way it's not something you just have to put up with. I'm currently getting counselling for anxiety issues, and it's not until now that I've realised how long my symptoms have been going on for, and how insidious (and easy to ignore) they are. Doubtless you will feel better over time, but it may be that your symptoms just lessen, rather than actually resolve. Sending you lots of healing hugs- take care of yourself. Emily ... View more

I understand your indignation. The terminology also buys into the popular notion that death is a defeat, instead of something that will happen to everyone, regardless of whether or not they have cancer. I've never heard of anyone 'losing a battle' to heart failure, or Alzheimer's disease, so I wonder why cancer is seen as different? ... View more

I'm sending you all big hugs at this horrendous time. ... View more

I'm sending lots of hugs to you and your kids. ... View more

I admire both of you so much. What you are both doing for your husbands is huge, and really hard. I'm sending big hugs. Emily ... View more

Hi Alan, I love your attitude! I wish you lots of good things. Emily ... View more

Have a brilliant time! You should buy yourself a special souvenier to mark this milestone, and encourage you in the future (rings are always nice...) :bigsmile: ... View more

Hi Frangipani, what a c**p load you've been handed. I haven't got any answers for you, and it is a question we all ask. All I can tell you is that you won't be alone. Lots of love and (((hugs))) Emily ... View more

Life is definitely unfair. I really feel for you. I so admire the way you can see the reason behind your husband's bad moods, as well. Sending you a supportive hug. Emily x ... View more