Sass I'll start treatment this Wednesday.  Chemo then 24 hours later the 2nd half of my treatment.. Crazy!!! This well happen once every 3 weeks.  I'm actually very happy with how well I'm being cared for. I have a great doctor who has made things move fast.  I lost count of how many tests I have had.  I had my port put in my chest before we even knew 100 % what I have.  My lumps in my armpit were removed i believe in 3 weeks.  It's going on two months if I remember right since I found them.  Most people would feel like that's a long time. But it was very busy for me.  Sometimes 3 Dr/ tests visits s week. Countless lab work and imaging.  Feel free to ask me anything else.  Hope all is well with you and your love one's  ... View more

John i can relate to making sure that my chair at church never ended up in a different spot.  I put red tape on the leg of my chair.  It became a THING to make sure my chair got put back exactly where I sat. One day a stranger took my chair. It gave me a heart attack:) ... View more

John great topic... When I was much younger I  lived to become a marine. I was going to in list right out of high school. I became a dad during my junior year.  I quit school to work.  I use beat myself up over it.  One day for some reason I realized that I had made many mistakes with our kids that I never really felt that I owed.  I made sure that they had the opportunity to be completely open and honest with me way before my cancer... My kids are way better parents than I was.  Thankfully I did do somethings right.  Today is all I have control over. Tomorrow is something I plan for. Yesterday was a day I  lived through.  Everyday I live i want my family to see that I handle my business like a strong leader and head of our family...No regrets      ... View more

So sorry to hear about your father.. I can't really offer any advice.  If he has seen good doctor's and they all agree that there isn't much they can do to cure him all you can do is try to make every day as good as possible.  I went through this with my mom.  Keep researching.  Maybe you will find something that can help your father.  Reach out to the doctor's for advice.  Stay strong and make sure you have help to help you  ... View more

I'm so sorry to hear about what is happening to you and your husband.  You didn't mention if you have kids or not.  I'm not a care giver but I'm a husband,father and grandfather with cancer. My responsibilities and role as head of my family didn't change because I have it. I believe my responsibilities are now more important than ever. Everything I have stood for and tried teaching my family is going to be tested.  I refuse to let this change who I'm.  In my house one is allowed to be mean. All eyes are on me. Do I really want my grandchildren to think that everything we believe as a family now doesn't matter . I believe cancer is harder on the people who loves the one with it. I see it in my wife's eyes and half smiles. She is trying hard to make this easier for me. And I hate that she is scared and unsure about our future  So I don't plan on adding any more problems for her.  Our oldest son told me the other day that he's glad that I'm the one with cancer. Because he knows I'm going to use it to make our family stronger.  Its times like this that we have to man up. I'm so thankful that my wife and kids are healthy. I  have no problems in the world as long as it stays that way.. I hope your husband does some serious research before he causes you more pain. Stage 4 doesnt mean he will die . But he's living like he has nothing to live for . There are to many people that are alive today that was told they had 6 months . Heck my doctor told my wife and I that I could still die from cancer or the treatment.  I smiled and told her that I'm alive today and that all that matters. Today is a new day.    ... View more

Ark... I personally love researching online. But you should always get professional medical advice for any uncertainty.  If you don't think your doctor is doing enough get a second opinion.  I saw my doctor almost a year ago and mentioned that I  felt like I had bugs under my skin, I felt unbalanced and just didn't feel myself.  We both kinda of brushed it off because I was just diagnosed with being pre diabetic.. I didn't even goggle my symptoms. Once I found a few lumps I started researching possible abilities. All my symptoms pointed that it could be lymphoma.  My doctor is amazing but we could have caught this almost a year early.. Get a second opinion and mention to the new doctor what you think it could be.  You wouldn't be the first person to help a doctor finger out what is wrong.  Keep us updated on what you learn.  ... View more

Tino and Jon   Thanks for your post and reply.  I'm so thankful that it's me with cancer and not my wife. We are very fortunate that our 4 kids are in their 30's. I haven't been able to talk to them for over a month now. I know that if we talk they will start crying and then I'll start to cry.  For some stupid reason I feel if they see me crying it's a sign of weakness.  I  honestly believe cancer is harder on the people who loves someone with it. There are times now that things my wife says or does that makes me mad.  Before I had cancer I would have thought differently about it. I don't allow myself to get upset at her because she means well.  My only advice I can offer is please don't take anything personally if your loves act out.  I honestly don't mind dieing.  I just wish at times I was alone and didn't have to see the pain my family is going through.  My Aunt Sandy has always been the strong female family leader. The other day she became speak less because she started crying over me. I freaking hate this part of cancer..   ... View more

Karen    It brakes my heart reading your story. My biggest fear as a father and now grandfather is having to go through what you are.  I'm very thankful that I have lymphoma and not someone I love.  I believe cancer is harder on the people who care about the person with it. My only advise for you is to find someone you feel comfortable with and let out your feelings.  Sadly this is something I struggle with.  So I know its easier said than done.  I'm very involved in my church. There are times where I wish someone would push me to open up and express how im really feeling.  I leave church mad because I feel they don't care.  But I know deep down inside they love me and know I'm not very open about my personal problems.  But I'm the first person to offer to help... Please find that someone. Because you need to be a 100 % for your son. Im sure seeing you this way is not making him happy.. I wish I had a magic pill to offer you 🌹 ... View more

Sass ....Sorry to hear about your health problems.  The waiting sucks. I found myself wishing weekend's would hurry up and be done.  I'm still waiting to find out exactly what I have and what treatments I need.  I have non Hopkins but there are a bunch of sub types . They  are doing a  FISH test. So I'm still waiting.  My advice is if you can handle it do a lot of research.  But not think that you have cancer.  Think what if I have cancer.  I did so much research that when the doctor told me what I have i had no questions for her. She was surprised on well informed I was.  I have cancer.  Oh well.. There is nothing I can do about it.  But we sure have a say on how we react to the news. I refuse to let it steal a moment of joy. I don't feel like I have cancer.  I don't act like I have it. I done even talk about it unless I have to miss work.  If you are having a hard time with this find something to distance you.  Yesterday I played games with is something I never do. Just a FYI.  My cousin had 12 miscarriages. She's 45 and her husband is now 50. They are a few months away from having a daughter .  NEVER get up  HOPE. Even if I was dieing I would enjoy every day.  Stay strong and keep us updated please.  Your journey just may help someone  ... View more