Hi zen1993, I feel for you! I am sorry your mum is suffering so much. Has she decided to go ahead with any treatment? It sounds like your whole family could do with some counselling, & some household help. Unfortunately, with the current climate, I don't know if you'd be able to get any help to do household stuff now though. Definitely, seek someone to talk with. You have a choice of services available. The Cancer Council hotline is 131120, then there is lifeline, etc. Re your wedding, would it be possible for you to have a pre-wedding wedding? If you could have a registry office wedding sooner rather than later, so your mother would be able to attend, as long as it's possible with the COVID-19 policies in place, then have the main wedding later, hopefully with your mum still here? It might not be the spectacular she's hoping for, but she would see you married. No matter what, you need to take some time out for yourself. Even if it is only half an hour every couple of days. I can't stress this to you enough. You need to do it, for your own sanity. Find something you love doing, take a stroll, go to your local park (if it's still open, & you're allowed out), take a bath & soak in it for as long as you want, just do something for yourself. Every member of your family should do this. Don't be a stranger here, this community is a wonderful place as there's bound to be someone who can give you some advice, or even just a chat, or an ear to listen. Take care, all the best. Budgie
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