Sick and tired of always being sad

[maddie86]

Well its our wedding in 3 weeks... And of course my beloved husband to be's back is out.. He strained it and is constant agony. Today we had our menu tasting and it wasnt a happy affair.. He complained that i didnt do a good job in choosing our wedding menu and was snappy and moaning in pain.. I see other couples there all happy going about planning their wedding, yet i dont feel happy at all :(. I guess it might be the lack of sleep, the stress of the wedding and of course this fkn cancer! Im so tired of seeing him in pain, and i feel dreadful when i want it to be over asap... I have my days wen im ok, but when we are around eachother a lot i get quite adgitated. I find wen im without him i miss him but feel calm and relieved... That makes me feel like im a bad person 😞 Sorry for the whinge.. Ive dreamed of my wedding for years, never dreamed id b planning it knowing my new hubby wont b around for a long time after.. Lifeis so unfair! Maddie

[little_stitcher]

Life is definitely unfair. I really feel for you. I so admire the way you can see the reason behind your husband's bad moods, as well. Sending you a supportive hug. Emily x

[maddie86]

Thanks emily xox

[purpleangels]

Hey Maddis! I know how you feel about getting agitated when you spend a lot of time together. I have been on holiday for two weeks and am SO ready to go back to work!! It is totally understandable to feel like this.......not only do you have the stress of the wedding, but the stress of thinking is he going to be able to enjoy it as much as he deserves to/ that you both deserve to? I have no advice for you I'm afraid, as much as I would love to give you a pearl of wisdom......I'll give you loads of pearls of love and support....... Cancer sucks.......but enjoy the good moments when they arrive!! Good luck with final wedding preparations!!! May you find some peace on this crazy roller coaster ride!!!! PA

[SILLY]

I can only imagine the stress you are going through . Even without cancer around ,many find wedding planning stressful . All you can do is to do your best and hope for the best . Your fiance must be having a variety of emotions too, on top of the pain . I hope you both enjoy the special day in 3 weeks time and that you'll look back and think that all went well on the day .

[Rubes1984]

Maddie86, Life really is so unfair at times..... Nobody should have to go through this pain ever let alone at our age.... I can only imagine the pain and sadness you are experiencing..... I understand how you feel about wanting some relief from seeing your fiance in so much pain.... I see my fiance crying so often about the uncertainty of my cancer and our life together after we get married (on 27th Oct). It is horrible to see the one u love heartbroken, defeated and overwhelmed What a sad place for u to be in so close to your wedding day, I know u have imagined a perfect day and I will keep my fingers crossed u have the day you dreamed of and both deserve. Planning a wedding is crazy stressful on a good day let alone while dealing with cancer. Make sure u take some time for yourself before the wedding - get a massage, have long foot spa, go to the moves alone (see a comedy and laugh), do a face mask with ur bridesmaids or just get drunk (at ur hens party). The thing I'm trying to say is take some Maddie time cause u def deserve it and we all need time to ourselves! U will be better for ur fiance and better for yourself by having some time out :) Take care Rubes