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Its been a while since I have visited and/or posted on this blog, in fact it was the day my dad died that was the last time. Since then I have had my ups and downs as you can expect and the road has been paved differently to that I thought it would have been.

This blog post talks about the side effects of all the anti nausea medication I was on during treatment. It wasn't always just the chemo that made me not well, it was the things that were supposed to make me better too haha. http://www.thecancerstory.com/2012/02/part-26-blocked-what-doctor-didnt-tell.html

its been just over a month and today is a bad day... it all started a few days ago i started to become lethargic then today i eventually broke down n pretty much cried all today. I miss him so much... i want to smell him again, to touch him, to have him hold me... when i used to get upset over him dying he'd console me and hug me so tight it was like instant relief. Ive been walking around the house moping and crying and both my parents have ignored me! My dad is in a terrible mood and my parents are just ignoring me while i bawl my eyes out...

Just back from spending a week with my mum in Adelaide as she fnished her radiation treatment. I get to spend two days doing family stuff before we start our daily runs to hospital for Petes radiation. Mum is a rural patient and had to stay in Adelaide for her treatment, fortunately the cancer council SA has fantastic accomadation available to patients with a shuttle bus that runs between hosptial and motel. I got to meet some wonderful people there, all there because of cancer. Some just starting and some who were well into there treatment.

My father passed away three weeks ago under palliative care at home. I was honoured to spend his last days on earth with him. I am unable to sleep and feel that I need to express how I feel so I have written a poem. I'm no expert at it but it makes me feel better to tell the world how I feel. As a baby you were my world As a child you were my hero As an adolescent you were my idol As an adult you were my wise advisor As a bride you will be with me in spirit As a new parent you will be missed As my children grow you will be remembered through your legacies