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Today was special - often I am so busy organising things for my mother-in-law, managing appointments and medication etc that I don't get to just be with her and enjoy the special person she is and the impact she's had on her family. I had hoped to get her out into the garden which she loves and misses (but feels scared to go out into alone.) Unfortunately the day was bitter cold and very grey and grim, so the garden was not a good idea. Instead, after I gave her injection and made a cuppa, we were able to just sit together for about 2 hours.

After I had my operation I had to have some CT scans to make sure the cancer had not spread. I also had to wait about a week before the results from the pathology tests had come. Waiting is hard at times, but when the results finally came, it was a relief in some ways because I knew what I was up against. http://www.thecancerstory.com/2011/09/part-8-uncertainty-relief.html

This evening my bright little 6 year old daughter who is in the top reading group in her class, sat and stared at her home reader and grumpily refused to even sound out words she could easily manage or to think about them related to the pictures etc as they are meant to do. And I am ashamed to say I got really cranky with her for not trying - my husband is still at work even now (8:30pm) thanks to some horrible deadlines he cannot escape, and I feel like I am not keeping all the balls in the air. Not even close.

After having my orchiectomy. I spent the next two weeks resting, and reflecting on everything that was happening. It was hard at times because I was waiting for the results of the biopsy to come through. When I finally had the call from the urologist, I was happy, even though the news was not the est, but I had answers, and I could finally prepare myself for the next few months. http://www.thecancerstory.com/2011/08/part-7-r-r-rest-reflection.html

Yesterday my partner was doing well. He even helped me cleaning up in the kitchen for the first time in the past few months. Today he has been feeling tired and in the afternoon he told me he felt really weird and all a bit shaky while in bed under doona. I hold him and played with his head for a bit and he felt a bit better. We thought it might be the new chemo he's on. I let him sleep and around 6 p.m. I went to check whether he wanted something to eat. He couldn't say anything apart from yes, no, probably, well, not yet, don't know.

After having surgery to remove the cancer from my body, it gave me alot of time to reflect on everything that was happening. I believe that this is when I began to put things into perspective. My life as I knew it was beginning to change. http://www.thecancerstory.com/2011/08/part-6-post-op.html