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I have to go in on Friday 3 December for the day. I didn't know that. I've arranged to go out that night. The note from the hospital says I need someone to pick me up and bring me home and stay with me for the first night. Well, I didn't know all that. What happened to the calendar we had for these things? I don't like it being next to your desk. It's inconvenient for me to write all my goddam appiontments on it. It needs to be more acceessible. Well where shound we put it. I don't care. Don't be cranky.

I still can't believe this is all happening to me. It seems unreal sometimes, - out of the blue, I will just get a thought, "is this real, Is this happening to me?" Like now . how am I supposed to deal with this, some people have called me brave, but I'm not. You just have to keep going. I'd love to get off the merry go round and let someone else take over. That's not going to happen. It is happening to me and I have to deal with it. I muddle along and blunder along, and have good positive moments and really morbid moments and moments where I am totally overwhelmed by all of it.

Been in hospital since Weds morning. Rocked up to chemo and they admitted me, could hardly walk, aenemic, and dehydrated. Ended up with 3 units of blood that night and lots a saline. Home late this afternoon (Friday). Have a mouth full of ulcers as well. LOL Just all the little things.

Was wondering if there is anyone out there who has had breast cancer which has then metastized to bone cancer. Would appreciate sharing of information.

Emergency Department Saturday night