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Well it's me again. Unable to sleep I am sitting at the computer letting my fingers pound the keyboard in an attempt to offload my fears and worries. An attempt to let them disappear into cyberspace, wafting through the black eeriness of the unknown, but then there's the problem......that's where we are, living in a world of uncertainty, the unknown, my fears and worries are just circling around me and my family. We're in some kind of vacuum where nothing can escape.

After stumbling across this site this morning and writing my first ever blog...I have now had a chance to read other peoples thoughts and I feel connected. I think I need to stay on top of here 🙂

Hi. Am sitting here now waiting for news of my SIL's total masctectomy. She was onld diagonised a few weeks ago with advanced, aggressive breast cancer (her mum and sister also had same) but to me she is such a strong and positive lady but I'm also worried about my brother as he has lost his wife/soulmate to a brain heamorraghe(wrongly spelt I know) and I don't think he can lose another wife.

I haven't been around much lately. Perhaps because I feel I don't deserve to be. Things are going very well for Rob and I, I would feel like a right cow going on about how things are going while people here struggle with old and new battles. We've had a couple of things come up that we've been able to deal with. Rob's CT, colonoscopy and blood test came back all clear for cancer!! YAY!!! We are in remission!

Well at around 3:30 pm this afternoon, my Dad lost his fight with Cancer. I wasn't with him as I couldn't watch him die, but I did tell him how much I loved him and how he has always been there for me. Mum tells me it was peaceful, she kissed him on the forehead and said "GoodBye My Love" and he simply stopped breathing. We are all in la la land at the moment, it has not really sunk in as yet. I felt the need to write on here as it is the only place that truly understands. I am getting drunk and not really feeling anything. The world has lost a very strong personality.