Blogs - Page 323

Wings - 2006 I had only just got my wings back after years of being pinned to the ground. After being pushed down and beaten time after time, again and again. After spending so long in the dark and finally clawing my way out. My beautiful wings have been clipped now I have been knocked back down to the ground And told to stay there – don’t get up! They told me once that it would get better. That life couldn’t possibly get any worse and that I would be destined for great things. I never even saw this coming.

Hair My grief washes over me while hot water and soap attempt to rid my skin of the rancid smell of cancer. I’ll let it run through me. I’ll close my eyes and listen to nothing while my heart beats madly to no ones song. My skin is pale and loose over bony ribs and paper thin finger nails scratch away at accumulated filth – but it's never quite gone. The bath I stand in is filled with soapy water and my dark hair, having suddenly given in - let go of its roots and succumbed to the madness of this disease.

I stepped into a lift one day and a voice said 'Press D'. 'What's D for?', I asked, instinctively. Looking around, I saw a small speaker set in the steel wall. The voice came from there. D is for diagnosis', it said. 'Silly. Go on, press it, you ordered the blood test. You can’t back out now.' Ten months later, I was still stuck in the lift. 'OK, press R' and you’re out of here. 'R?' 'R is for remission - slow coach!' I pressed R and the doors opened. I stepped out, into an empty lobby. I wondered where I was. Still do.

Its really good to see Josh eating so much today!! He had about 7 bowls of Nutri-Grain cereal, Peanut Butter on toast, about 3 potatoes smothered in Garlic and roasted, and a bowl of rice. This might seem like a small amount, but usually Josh only eats 2 things all day: A bowl of popcorn and a handful of pretzils. It seems he loves all things salty; not good for the arteries but hey... it makes him smile.

🙂 🙂 JOSH'S TUMORS HAVE RESPONDED TO CHEMO!!!!! 🙂 :) WOW!!! Finally some great new for Josh. Today he had an examination under anasthetic (EUA). The opthamologist came out with a beaming smile, and said, finally, after such a long time, Josh's tumors in the gel sac of his eye, are 50% smaller than his last examination, which means, his chemo courses are working. Thank God!!!!! 🙂