Hi DJ, your post and in particular many of the replies brings many upsetting feelings to the surface for me. Although I'm not technically a survivor, everyday I wake-up I remind myself that I have survived another 24 hours. I no longer disclose my medical state nor any detailed personal history. Past relationship experiences have clipped my openness and honesty and I dump all obvious symptoms on my increasing age. Actually I look quite normal, whatever that is. Attempting to rekindle relationships with old  buddies has been surprising and in a few cases really shocking. Some simply dont wont to go anywhere near a discussion and others already have their opinions. Seems that some even have more knowledge about me than I do. My general attitude is if you dont wanna friend me because I'm sick then your're not worthy of my friendship anyway.  I hope everyone here is doing ok today and survive another day. My LOVE to you all. ... View more

Dearest Steve... I also had no support during chemo and after. I've lost nearly all my friends. Not one has asked how I am and how I'm doing. Not only did my friends desert me my parents also did. Kicked me out of the apartment they had for me while going through chemo...they said I complained to much and  shunned me even more for taking pain pills. I had become a junkie to them. Why can people not understand this horrible disease? I am 6 months out of chemo and still feel i haven't gotten a clear answer if is gone. every time i went to dr. It was everything looks great only to go into the hospital for SOB and be told there were three lymph nodes they were still looking at. My symptoms have started again. I feel abandoned from every corner. Dealing with cancer i thought would be the worst..no..now i have neuropathy and absolutley miserable. I'm scared and fed up that i may never get back to normal.  ... View more

My apologies Karinise, I stand corrected ,no disrespect intended, Ron. ... View more

I think you would be doing a lot better by now as your post was months ago . I hope so . ... View more

My thoughts are with you. I was so sorry to hear this and being a survivor myself - I feel helpless. we dont know what tomorrow brings, but you have it in front of you - literally. Be brave my sister and may God bless you and your family and the family next door. A real tragic!! ... View more

Hi there, I have just Pm'd you 😄 take care Annie ... View more

Hi CJF I can relate to your apprehension I go into deep anxiety when I have to go for a check up I know how important it is but I always am so uncertain even when my voice sounds a little hoarse I immediately think it's back for about a second then I decide I need to be more positive just get on with things. I hope hydrotherapy goes well , my partner works at a private clinic in Mascot and says it does work . Let us know how you get on .. Tae care Rod ... View more

Thanks all. I am writing, painting frantically and having been counselled before for ptsd it never occurred to me to use the same methodology here. This may help my husband and I understand why certain events in our house trigger certain emotions. Thanks for your insight! ... View more