so last night mum was so sick that we had to take her to the hospital, poor thing was so sick, today we managed to work out which nausea medication makes her feel better, downside and upside is its a injection, i have well had a massive fear of needles, today i was shown how to give mum her medication, i am PROUD to say i gave her her first one tonioght!!! yay for me.....hopefully i can see some improvement in her overnight starting to make me sad watching her this way!!! xx hope u r all well ... View more

so day one of mums chemo, its been about 8hours since she finished her first treatmnt the nurses were fantastic and made us feel fantastic helped mum get a wig and gave her a turban which helped. today made it all become a reality, its the start of this fight and the fear was getting to me alothough i contained it very well. so tonight she has been ill, hot flushes, throwing up, nausea, the nurse came and gave her a maxolon injection and settled her tummy enough to get in the medication anyway. i hate seeing my mum so ill, i wish there was something i could to stop it all the illness, the pain the cancer!!! she is my life i really dont like to see her this way. but for now this is the beginning and tomorrow is another day and heres hoping each day gets better!! but here i sit and stay until she needs me, where i belong, and as sick as she is i wouldnt want to be anywhere else!!! LOVE YOU MUM xoxox ... View more

today mum went and had a heart scan done, i think it went well and all was ok, i then took her to the oncolgy unit to find out when they would be starting the chemo, they are still unsure as they are still waiting on results to be able to start from canberra, its so frustrating, she just wants to start fighting and i feel this really let her down, it let me down, i want to see her stepping forward in this process and the start for us is to do the chemo!! why does it take so god dam long to get it all going?? i am feeling really low today and just want this all to go away and end! i love being here with my mum the thought of having to go home is really hard i really dont want to leave!! ... View more

Is it normal for me to be worrying more about my dad then my mum who is the victim of this? i worry his not coping, mum is his bestfriend his soul mate, they are the perfect couple, they are all i wanted to be!! working out how to help him and making him realise this is hard and painful but its our battle not just her battle, i just hope he knows how much i love him and how much i will be there for him good days and bad! i am ready for this journey, i am ready to be yelled at, cried at, laughed at and laugh with, for the good, the bad and the shitty sick days, TOGETHER its all we have left in our hands OUR CONTROL!!! ... View more

My mum has just been diagonised with breast cancer which has already spread to the bone and liver, she is starting chemo this week. Its full on and accepting what is happening and going to happen is a full on process. I have researched some things already to try and help her in the chemo process but i know everyones different and all respond differently, i have watched a great mate go through this process at a very advanced stage and loose his battle, the fear is starting to kick in for me as to how much pain and sickness she is going to have to go through. no one like to see ppl in pain but she isnt just my mum she is my best friend, and i am finding it hard to gain the strength to get her through it. she is my world, the thought of the treatment not working scares me, but the thought of her in pain and being so sick scares me more! ... View more

Mum has just been diagonised with breast cancer, how do i be strong enough for this? ... View more