It's ironic - the one thing I want, above all others, is for my children to outlive me. I just don't want it RIGHT NOW, please and thank you. My kids are aged 6-10. Youngest was 4 when I was diagnosed. Middle guy (now 😎 is autistic, and we have a special bond. The idea of him coping with the grief of losing his dad ... it .. it wounds me in a way I cannot describe. It oppressively crushes down on my soul, it's just awful. But .. I'm not dead yet, in fact, I'm lucky, my treatment worked and I'm (touch wood) cancer free. I hope your treatment trajectory gets better, it sounds really bad that the cancer has spread. As your son is 15 years old, the only suggestion I can put forward is two-fold: 1) whether it's a month, a year, a decade or longer: love the bugger as hard as you can for as long as you can (goes for wifey too) 2) get a camera, and record messages to your future son - if you survive, you can still watch them together and celebrate that you're alive .. but if you're not, I think it will comfort him to be able to connect with his dad on his 21st birthday, or after he marries, that kind of thing .. just think of those future milestones and record little messages and save them on a memory stick marked "I love you, Dad" (you know what I mean, just name the files for what they're about "21st Birthday" "Feeling Blue?" "Graduated High School" .. and don't taint them with your grief, be as natural as you can - he'll always have that to keep you alive in his heart) Just my two cents - sorry if the suggestions are gross or creepy to anybody, but I personally, were I bereaved, would love to have messages from the loved one (maybe not at first, but later, after that first period of ravaging grief has passed)
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