Hi, My mum passed away 2 weeks today and i feel nearly exactly like you do. She had a long battle with cancer until 5 weeks ago when were told that there was no more treatment and just make here "comfortable". My mum was my person, my best friend, my anchor. People keep checking on me and asking if i'm ok and i mostly am, it feels weird to not be balled up in the corner sobbing for such a loss, but i have 2 kids and run a business and you kind of just have to keep going. I agree that your brain sort of blocks it away for you somehow, until you're ready or something. I have had a few sad moments here and there, but I feel like I'm still in shock - or like I can just drop into her house tomorrow and she'll be there... Death is such a strange thing to process. Just take your time and be gentle with yourself. one day at a time. one moment at a time. I have been writing letters to my mum when i want to tell her something and putting them in a box - i may burn these all at a later date but maybe that's something you could do that might help get some feelings out? best of luck moving forward X ... View more

You are very welcome Anneidril, If you want to talk about some issue or something.. ill be willing to help . Nice to read that you've helped others like your mom also guided you. Thats a right path! ... View more

I am so sorry. I don't think we can really prepare for this. My husband died six weeks ago from a terribly aggressive cancer, I tried to think of ways to prepare. Perhaps the best things is to talk, gather those you love around you and trust in your own strength. What else can anyone do? It is a very difficult time, be kind to yourself. ... View more

Thanks so much for your kind words. Day by day...sounds easy but not so far... Love to you and your mum Tania. Sorry to hear of your loss also xx ... View more

I’m so sorry to read your story. I lost my Dad on 21st October He was diagnosed with cancer 8 weeks prior.  I understand what it feels like to battle with the thought of him suffering in the end. My Dad suffered so badly in the last 2 days, we were caring for him at home and it was very confronting.  My Dad didn’t want to die and would beg God to save him. That is what torments me now. The thought of a big strong man begging for his life, he didn’t want to leave us.  I replay the conversation he had with the doctor in head, he was given 2-6 weeks to live and he asked please will I be here for Christmas.   I understand the roller coaster it must of been for you, having thought he was in the clear only to have your heartbroken. We thought my Dad was getting better (we were so blind to it all)    How cruel and horrifying for your family.    I am mad most days, mad at God, the doctors, everyone    I’m not sure if I’ve helped you at all but know that, but I wanted you to know I understand your pain  xx    ... View more

Hi Tania10,   That's...unbelievable heartbreaking...i'll get right to the recommendations I think.    I am not sure what state you are currently in but the Australian Government Department of Health regulates therapeutic medicines containing cannabis through the Therapeutic Goods Administration. So apparently in Queensland all doctors can prescribe S4 cannabidiol (CBD) without Government approval. (Schedule 4 is just a classification - it's defined as drugs with have low risk potential for abuse or dependence).  So going to your local hospital with proving documentation of your father's condition might obtain you some. Cannabidiol is good for anxiety, movements disorders, chronic pain and cognition. So CBD Oil might be effective? I hear people say that it is effective. I think going with the CBD (cannabidiol) is a more natural approach.   https://www.qld.gov.au/health/conditions/all/medicinal-cannabis - Queensland Government site - Medicinal cannabis treatment. If you're not in Queensland, this site could redirect you to the suitable area or at least provide some helpful information regarding the drug.   You can try for an higher level of benzodiazepines - They slow down the brain's central nervous basically. So SIV such as Ativan (lorazepam) - this goes under the tongue and melts away, it acts quite fast. It is primary used for anxiety and depression but pain management as well sometimes. Valium (diazepam) it's used to help lesser intense panic attacks and considering your father's current condition, the addiction risks probably won't be an major factor. Clonazepam (klonopin) is another commonly used treatment for cancer patients, tho it is also used for controlling seizures and nerve pain, multi-use. All will cover some level of pain, some more than others.   There are a lot of drugs out there and different drugs treat different pain. Soft tissue pain, nerve pain, bone pain and etc. Sometimes taking 2 or 3 types of medication is required to treat each one. but I would still recommend the more natural CBD one. It treats inflammatory and nerve pain as well. But that's just my two cents - remember to ask your treating doctor for recommendations.   The general rule with benzodiazepines: The more you take, the less your there.  Meaning due to the side effects like drowsiness, grogginess, confusion and etc, they may not be completely aware or alert. But sometimes it's necessary.  ... View more

Thank you so much for your reply and all the info Greatly appreciated  ... View more