Dear Sarah2025, Your post shows great love for your husband through your words and thoughts. Cancer unfortunately affects everyone around a person afflicted by it. I don’t think it’s unreasonable for you to feel the way that you do. You are being so strong and the first line person for your husband to count on and get support from. But you also need support too. At a point, that steam starts to run out. And can be hard to gain back. You are already thinking about positive actions like meditation, going for a walk and relaxing your mind. But please know it is also okay to take moments for yourself. You don’t have to phrase them as “breaks”. A circuit breaker is a better definition. It interrupts your current flow and can reset things when turned back on. And you have been through a long time of stress. It can be as small as a few hours at the beach or somewhere you find grounding and peaceful. It can be creating a journal of your raw thoughts, just to get them out of your head. You don’t ever have to show anyone it. It can start with a small, few sentence entry and work it’s way up to larger ones,if you haven’t tried before.It can also be a single swear word all over the page if it has been a particularly challenging day. It just gets it out. It can be getting a treat from the donut shop and sitting down and enjoying it before you go home after grocery shopping every week. It can also be taking a bath with a special soak. You can do good and nice things for yourself as you care for someone else. But most of all it can be by yourself. It is okay to take time out just for yourself. It does not make you a “bad” person to need some alone space and time. Everyone does. You are not ignoring anything that is happening in your life. Or going on a three week luxury resort vacation to Dubai without any thought or consideration to your current circumstances. You are allowing a space for your mental health to recoup little bit,by little bit. Please don’t ever feel like you can’t ask or accept mental health services that maybe available to you. They give you an outlet to speak to professionals privately about what you need to the most.In clinic and telehealth. And that can be invaluable. And they will have many more strategies that can be tailored to you. The Cancer Council said to give their number a call and you can also discuss options with your GP, and there can be Medicare benefits for some services. Most of all I just want you to know, the way you feel makes sense. It is very valid. You are incredibly strong. The best to you, or chat back if you would like to. Milo01
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