So sorry for your loss Jodie From the day Tracy was diagnosed till the unfortunate end I  had put  my emotions on hold, I had to,  as i was her pillar of support, her rock in this universe and she was mine. It was hard times for me once Tracy had physically gone, as it was time now for me to release the grief, what you are experiencing now. Not a day goes by that i don’t think about Tracy sometimes bringing me to tears and other times sharing a chuckle as i remember the good times we had together. Its now been two  + years  since I lost my soulmate in this universe and thinking back now to what i was experiencing in the week following i fully understand the deep grief  you must be feeling. Jodie keep moving forward taking it day by day, you are allowed to grieve however  you want, and yes you might feel guilty about things but i can say totally normal feelings as you can only find the right way to deal with the grief that suits you. Good support base of friends and family around you, including this forum, I  found it very helpful in my progress, it gave me an outlet to vent my frustrations, anxiety and feelings knowing that in a way we were all comforting each other in the process. I can say Jodie that the grief you are feeling now will get better even though you  probably  cant  see it as time moves forward. I couldn’t see it at first either however I slowly  learnt to be able to look at past photos and allow memories to move back in as it was my form of grief moving forward. I will never forget my Tracy as you will never forget  your partner as they will always be with us  as we move on. I do apologise if I have caused you any discomfort of what i have said above and hope your time moving forward day by day is at your pace and your way. Michael ... View more

Thank you so much SB & Lampworks for sharing.  I felt so alone before & it's great to know that others make decisions about quality of life.  Actually replied earlier & my fumbly fingers went stupid & it disappeared.  At 79 think am ready to go as my body hasn't been healing the past few years.  Take care. Tired out now & can't think.  Hell nearly lost it again.  ... View more

Hi, I suffered eating purred foods for weeks and weeks suffering the same cancer as your Mum. After radiotherapy my oesophagus has widened and am able to eat normaly. It seems with chemo following the first week food tastes terrible then improves the second week, it seems to be a cycle. I seem to be breezing through chemo so I hope your Mums the same  I hope this helps  ... View more

Thanks for your reply.  Hope things go well on  Thursday.  There wasn't any more spotting, so all is good. I go for radiation appt on Fri to get the 'mold' made and then wills start radiation in about 7-10 days. Sorry you have to go thru more surgery soon. Hope it won't be as painful this time. Mine was painful due to the lymph nodes taken out. Take care.  ... View more

Hi I was diagnosed with breast cancer a week ago.  I know exactly how you feel - I feel "everything will be fine" one minute and now I'm worried because my head and neck hurt and I'm immediately thinking, has this thing metastasised?  I too feel like I'm having an out of body experience and this isn't quite real  It's really scary - I try to down play how I feel with family and friends as I don't want them to get upset    I just heard Princess Catherine talk about her diagnosis and my heart aches for her too.   It isn't easy for any of us -  I can only wish you all the very very best with your treatment.  Please take care of yourself, surround yourself with those you love.  Virtual big hug from me X ... View more

Thank you. It’s been a roller coaster ride of emotions. Still waiting on more results. After the op this week she needs to get strong and ready for the next op. This warm chemo is supposed to give you 10 years instead of 5 fingers crossed ❤️ ... View more

Hi Deadalready88 my thoughts with you, and I feel with you, friends and family will never really understand what we are going through, no matter what they say, they are are all doing there best and I do acknowledge that. I had decided I would go through major surgery for my bladder and rare ureter cancer, and after I got the details and cost of my surgery on Friday, all has changed. My body is going to be mutilated as far as I’m concerned and I will not be going through this, so have decided I will not be having surgery. Have decided to go with a third opinion and my GP is now doing a report for referral to public system at Peter MacCallum, as I’m not sick have little pain I’m simply going to try to go on with life, I have a stent in my ureter which I know will have to be changed again in a matter of a month or two, I feel I have been very let down and I’m at a stage of no more, so will wait to hear from public system as I do know the major system with what has been put in writing will never happen  ... View more

Hello Lampwork54,   Thank you very much for your kind reply. The solution has been found.  I really appreciate your response.   Kindest Regards. ... View more

Hi Vicky,   You're in a very difficult situation.  I'm really sorry.  It must be heart breaking to see your son deteriorating and trying to keep on a brave face for his children.  You must be exhausted!  Young children are hard work and I think our children often forget we're much older now looking after their children.  As joyous as grand parenting is, be careful of your health right now and that of your husband's.  I have not been in your situation but the mother of one of my grandson's developed stomach cancer during Covid.  It was a terrible time and only her mother was allowed in the hospital with her as she died.  It was a terrible shock to us all and even her son who was under 18 was not permitted to see her.  From a distance we grieved and only 5 people were allowed at her funeral.     You're also isolated and away from you support network of family and friends.  That's incredibly hard. Just be gentle with yourself and your husband.  Nothing can prepare you for the emotions of your situation.  Eat well, sleep well and rest when you can.  You both have to look after yourselves or you will not be able to help your son during this time of crisis.     I wish you both well and hope you can find some light in your darkest time. x ... View more

Thank you for your kind reply!  I am waiting on Princess Alexandra in Brisbane, so public. I’ve spoken to the lovely admin team there but unfortunately they don’t know much more until the Surgeons team arrange the date.  Thank you again for your thoughtful message!  🫶🏼 ... View more