Blogs - Page 186

Well have not had a lot of time to respond to messages or update blog lately as quite a few things have happened since Christmas, on New Years Eve I had to get an Ambulance to take my husband to hospital as his temp.shot up to nearly 39 degrees, they took him to our nearest hospital as the hospital he is treated at usually is too far away.

well I had my unscheduled ct scan this morning. The results came back showing a few more lesions in the liver. The main tumor on the pancreas hasn't changed. To say that this was hard to hear would be an understatement. To then get told that I wasn't responding to the gemcitibine was harder still and as a result that avenue of treatment would now stop. BUT talking to my oncologist, it's not the end of the world. Apparently all it really means is that I am now part of a group who don't responsd to gemcitibine.

does anyone else hate it when a specialist books you in for a test without giving you any reason? today, at about 4pm, mine booked me in for a ct scan tomorrow morning at 9.15. as she did not inform me herself (someone from her office did) it is a bit of a mystery to me as to why. I am trying not to let myself think that it as a result of a blood test with high markers or some other reason, but it would have been nicer to be told something.

never came. She died yesterday. The whole time, whenever I thought about her disease, I either felt upset, angry or thought about silly questions like why. I knew all those thoughts and emotions were meaningless. Now, even though I still feel the sadness, I'm surprised, because it's the first time i thought "I love you". My senseless anger and disbelief were raging all along and i never really stopped to just appreciate her. How honoured i am how and lovely it was, to have her grace my life.

I have tried to use a photo of me as my profile picture.It doesn't work . My husband tried and failed too. Some of you managed .Any clues. I went to up-load picture, clicked Browse,selected from My pictures and ..... nothing.