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I had a chat with a survivor who was really anxious about secondary cancers etc... Just what has poisoning the body done. Sure she's cured, but at what cost. Maybe I'll have the luxury to worry about this when I've survived past the 5 year mark as she has. But from where I am now, I just think well there are increased risks but there's never a 100 per cent certainty. I know I am now a 1 in 50 risk for something. That's 2 percent. And 1 in 300 for something else. My odds of getting NHL were not high and I got it. Lymphoma is more common now but still rare.

I caught up with a friend who's back in town for Xmas. I know it's only been 3.5 weeks since the last chemo, but I'm feeling really good. Going to the beach everyday for a quick dip in the ocean has helped. The cold water invigorates me and I get a dose of vitamin d. I'm careful to not spend too much time in the sun as the drugs I've been on make me photosensitive.

My daughter went home interstate today. I cant believe the incredible feelings of sadness that have overwhelmed me this afternoon. I cry at the drop of a hat. I miss her already. this is not a normal reaction. Although I did feel a bit over emotional earlier in the week as well. I think I have just had enough of the chemo. fingernails are starting to look ridgey (is that a word) and red also.

I have 2 weeks to go with chemo. yahoooooooooooo...... I finish on 30th December. Not quite in time for Christmas but certainly in time for New Year. PICC line comes out and I will be free to a certain point for new year. The tumours have not gone away completely and probably never will, but they are shrinking. So it should be contained for a while. I think they were a little surprised at how well I am going at this stage. Fingers crossed it will go even better in the January scans.

Well I am still going with the 365 day project. I haven't missed a day yet although some days I have got to the end of the day and remember I haven't done the photo. I have had my daughter home from interstate this week. She is getting married here in March so the week has been full on with wedding arrangements and finalising bookings on some of the things for the day.