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What do I feel? I feel everything and I feel nothing. I feel exhausted, emotionally, mentally, physically and socially. I feel frustrated, angry, ripped off and cheated. I feel scared,I feel sad and I feel like I haven't taken a breath that completely fills my lungs for the last 14 months. I feel like I want to cry an ocean of tears and yet none come. I feel useless. I feel empty. I feel resentment and resentful. I feel lazy. I have nothing to give, I'm all out of everything. I am numb.

For now I will gaze at the sun draping itself over my deck, For now I will listen to the kookaburras in the trees behind me, For now I will relish the fragrance of my favourite rose, For now I will listen for the frogs in my new pond, For now I will wait for my daughter's hug when she comes in, For now I will spoil her daughter when she says "please Mima" For now I will lose myself in a good book, For now I will "do lunch" with my friend when she's free, For now I will just BE May tomorow never come, For then, I will rest...

I am sad today. I shall probably be sad tomorrow. But for all of you brave and wondrous people, I shall keep a smile tucked away. Just to remind me that I am not alone. I rejoice in your spirit.... xoxox

Hi my dad has oesophagous cancer and has been on morphein patches and endocodin tabs for pain releif last 2 month and now GP has stoppedmorphein due to breathing problems and has given him patches to help with breathing plus endocodin. Talking to him tonight he sounded drunk and slurring words (even though he doesn't drink) I really don't understand what is going on as he won't give me permission to speak to his drs. I really can't understand why they have changed patches and he can't say either!!

Hi