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Hi Samex, Thanks, this is the place I come for some support and often some perspective. Very powerful... Jill xo ... View more

Today, I went to the lake for a walk. I cried. I cried not because of unhappiness, not because I am angry but because I am still a human being. I am much more calmer, focus but still need the space and time on my own. I suddenly realised that no matter what we try. It all depends on how my husband's body act against the cancer cells. There is absolutely nothing I can do or offer to help. (as previously said he is not interested on any fruit/vegetable drinks, any religions group, any special cancer programs) I just have to leave it to the Nature to take the load. ... View more

Hi Jill, Just catching up on blogs after being away. Sending you a big Maxy cuddle coz thats all I can think of to do. My heart is with you Alana xxx ... View more

Hi Jill. I really don't know what you are going through as it is your husband and you have 2 small children. Does it make any difference if it is your dad who is so sick? I am trying to back off from this site as I feel so guilty that I am complaining when my dad is still here when there are so many who are much worse off than me. I am prepared to have dad here with me but that is up to him. It's such a hard time and I feel so helpless and all I can do is ring him every night and talk about good times but it is really up to him to make that decision to come and live with me but at least I have made it clear to him he is so welcome. My heart really goes out to you as you have a bigger burden than me. Take care of yourself xoChris ... View more

Hiya Lyn Welcome and yes this site is wonderful in that it provides us with evidence that we are not the only ones to have what we think are strange thoughts or experiences. 🙂 Julie xo ... View more

Hi Jill Good to hear the test results have come back clear....hopefully they will find out what is causing the temperatures...but if not they may just disappear without explanation as sometimes things do? Nice to hear that you are taking timeout for yourself. Enjoy ......love and best wishes, Willow xo xo ... View more

Hi Helen37, My husband is also terminal, his primary cancer was oesophageal with secondaries in his abdomen/peritoneum(spelling?) and a secondary tumour on the brain was discovered in early December. The unknown time frame is very distressing, we were given a prognosis in December of 2-3 months, obviously we hope they are wrong. I feel like I am walking a tightrope, trying to keep the balance between being 'too real' and 'being too hopeful'. I am scared of getting my hopes up too high as then I will have further to fall. Talk with your boyfriend's oncologist/medical team about all the questions that you have, they may not be able to give you all the answers, but if you don't ask, they're not likely to tell you anything. It is exhausting being the partner/carer, try to remember to take time out for yourself too. A very hard lesson to learn, I know, I am still working on that myself!! Thinking of you and sending you strength and courage, Jill. ... View more

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