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I have reached the time where Iam between radiotherapy and surgery. I am resting as well as I can until the next lot of MRI and pet scans to see if the tumour has shrunk. Then there is surgery. I spent over a week in hospital during the last week of radiotherapy. My body had a bad reaction to the chemotherapy and I was very ill. Now I am slowly improving and off the strong pain killers. My main problem is unbelievable fatigue.How does one cope during this time .? Sometimes it gets very hard to keep on being positive and I can hear myself getting a bit whingey .

Well, we have now completed day 2 of radiation. Ben was great yesterday, very tired today, & a bit naseated. Reality hit, when I had to undress him & put him to bed tonight. Is this what my life is going to be? God, I pray for a miracle every day, please give me the miracle my family needs. My eldest daughter who is 3 is struggling, she was very emotional today. She knows dad is sick, and up till now she has played it off with offers of bandaids & cold glasses of water. But today, I think it has hit home as much as it can to a 3 year old.

What bought me here? My 34 year old husband was diagnosed with a grade 2 Astrocytoma brain tumour March this year, one week after I gave birth to my second beautiful daughter. We have 2 girls, 6 months & 3 years old. He has always had a "unsteady hand", this has progressively got worse as he got older, so he saw a neurologist who thought it was a basic "essential tremor" but sent him for a MRI just in case. This MRI found our terrible life changing news- A tumour that is the size of a golf ball & is in a terrible spot- right next to the thalamus & is growing down the brain stem.

My beautiful sister passed away this morning in her sheep. we did not get a chance to see her before but were able to give her cuddles later in the morning. Jenny had so much fight in her it was unbelievable. she faught right to the end but sadly was on her own as it was not expected this soon. i guess its a blessing as she was in so much pain in the end. Linda HOLD ON when troubles assail you HOLD ON when pressures surround you, HOLD ON When skies turn to gray and you can't find your way, When the outlook seems darkest, HOLD ON Whenever you're lonely, HOLD ON

I am trying to stay strong,i am trying to stay positive...it seems in life when you have a problem you can usually solve it whether its in relationships,employment or anything that comes along.....unfortunatley with cancer its turning out to be one of those problems without a magic solution,no easy fix.I know"keep positive""keep strong"....i try and i try and i try...2 weeks ago i had a small bowel resection to remove a tumour which is almost certainly recurrence from having stage 4 inoperable metastatic esophageal cancer...PET scan yesterday and have to wait 2 weeks for the results 😞 my swa

There comes a point in your life when you realise that nothing will ever be the same, and you realise that from now on… time will be divided into two parts, before this and after this.