Hi DJ, your post and in particular many of the replies brings many upsetting feelings to the surface for me. Although I'm not technically a survivor, everyday I wake-up I remind myself that I have survived another 24 hours. I no longer disclose my medical state nor any detailed personal history. Past relationship experiences have clipped my openness and honesty and I dump all obvious symptoms on my increasing age. Actually I look quite normal, whatever that is. Attempting to rekindle relationships with old  buddies has been surprising and in a few cases really shocking. Some simply dont wont to go anywhere near a discussion and others already have their opinions. Seems that some even have more knowledge about me than I do. My general attitude is if you dont wanna friend me because I'm sick then your're not worthy of my friendship anyway.  I hope everyone here is doing ok today and survive another day. My LOVE to you all. ... View more

Dearest Steve... I also had no support during chemo and after. I've lost nearly all my friends. Not one has asked how I am and how I'm doing. Not only did my friends desert me my parents also did. Kicked me out of the apartment they had for me while going through chemo...they said I complained to much and  shunned me even more for taking pain pills. I had become a junkie to them. Why can people not understand this horrible disease? I am 6 months out of chemo and still feel i haven't gotten a clear answer if is gone. every time i went to dr. It was everything looks great only to go into the hospital for SOB and be told there were three lymph nodes they were still looking at. My symptoms have started again. I feel abandoned from every corner. Dealing with cancer i thought would be the worst..no..now i have neuropathy and absolutley miserable. I'm scared and fed up that i may never get back to normal.  ... View more

Thank you for replying Rod & CJF. Still sounds scary, but it's good to know others have been through it & are manageing. I will keep that massaging thing in mind & hopefully I won't be too radical a procedure. Cheers, ... View more

Hi CJF I can relate to your apprehension I go into deep anxiety when I have to go for a check up I know how important it is but I always am so uncertain even when my voice sounds a little hoarse I immediately think it's back for about a second then I decide I need to be more positive just get on with things. I hope hydrotherapy goes well , my partner works at a private clinic in Mascot and says it does work . Let us know how you get on .. Tae care Rod ... View more

Sorry,Rodney.We lost our cat and our dog both last year.The dog was 13 and the cat was 19 years old. ... View more

Hi Sylvia, thank you for your reply, we are on to day 11 of treatment, and so far so good.. Terry has fared remarkably well so far, with no pain, except the occasional headache which thankfully panadol will ease. He is however having a bit of a rough time with his throat feeling very tight and that closing in feeling.. They keep telling us to make the most of it and that it will get worse, but for now we are thanking our lucky stars that he is still so well.. Eating is going well as is his weight only fluctuating by a kilo or so either way, depending on what he has eaten for the day, I have been in my element cooking up a protien based storm for him, last night was an omelette with chicken, ham and cheese, that went down well apparently, Terry has said that his tastebuds have changed though and every thing has to have sauce or lots of salt and pepper on it for him to enjoy it.. so if thats what it takes thats what we do.. Tonight he felt like mince so i have made a nice kind of pie filling mix with gravy and he is having that with mash potato with lots of milk and butter.. just the way he loves it.. and its guilt free for now 🙂 He has tried the drinks the hospitals have given him with out much luck, he didn't like the taste or the texture but im sure when he needs them (when he has no taste buds) im sure they will be ok We have been very impressed with all help and support the hospital have given us. They truly are a special group of people.. thanks for the support as well Sylvia, its very much appreciated by both terry and myself. take care and stay well.. Debstar ... View more

Hi Hopeful, I was very saddened by reading your post. I have no words that could possibly make this pain or sorrow better. Such a horrible thing to happen and exactly - What the F@#K do u do now?? I can only imagine the pain you are enduring and have endured - to watch the person u love fade away. I guess you grieve and let that be whatever it maybe: sadness, anger, rage, happiness, relief, guilt, fear and acceptance. I hope and pray you find some peace soon and may your son be your light at this dreadful time. Ruby “Just when you think it can't get any worse, it can. And just when you think it can't get any better, it can.” ... View more

Hi Rodney ... just wrote to you in the other group and i am sure you are numb ... hang in there!! We will all be behind you! Julie ... View more