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i cannot remember the last time i wrote. mum had a chest infection and after a week in hospital she went to a hospice, after one week in the hospice she came home as she decided she was not ready to pass away.mum spent two and a half beautiful weeks at home before returning to the hospice. on the doctors usual weekly visit she explained that mum had pneumonia and had had a mild stroke from brain tumor bleed and suggested mum return to hospice. mum passed away shortly after returning. it happened the way mum always spoke how she wanted it to...quick and peaceful.

I've been aboard the oxycontin slice of hell for many months now.... After my surgery it was necessary to deal with pain and then all the secondary pain from the cancer. It helped also once starting my chemoto manage all the side effects. I had gone up to 50mg a day and was becoming a zombie...... Once finishing my chemo my gp agreed I could start reducing my dose. So slowly I have been reducing my dose. I am now down to 10mg a day (high five to me) however it has been a hell of severe side effects.

This is part 2 of my last blog. It was a reflection of everything I had started to overcome when i was recovering from cancer. http://www.thecancerstory.com/2012/01/part-25-confessions-of-mad-man-2.html

Tonight on Today Tonight was a segment called Lisa Maree . She has the same cancer that a few of us on this site have . Her's is especially aggressive . Lisa was diagnosed only last year and now ,only 24 years old ,she has been told that she may not make it to Christmas .

its been nearly 3 weeks, since my new husband has passed away... it has been nearly 1 month and 3 weeks since we married... what the hell is this? i wake up some days ok.. today i went for a swim was motivated.. then tortured myself with his voice messages, photos and videos of us overseas.. he died just after his 25th birthday... he'l be 25 forever and i'll get old without him... how is that fair? i thought we were already on this cancer rollercoaster and now i want off.. i thought i was done and now im on a new one... the actual grief one and it sucks! its 1.30am and im wide awake...

Sometimes things happen much quicker than you can keep up with. News of a new tumour on Fiday last week, in for surgery Tuesday. Recovery from 2nd op has been a lot harder on poor Pete, but today is only Wednesday. A few issues that I'm concerned with post surgery that weren't there before, vision, speech unsteady on his feet. I'm hoping these are all going to disappear. The kids got a shock when I took them in to visit. What can I do but keep my fingers crossed.